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May 16, 2012

Home > 2009 > December (Web-Only)Christianity Today, December (Web-Only), 2009
SoulWork
Waiting for Jesus to Show Up
Moving from loving the idea of loving God to loving God.




Robert Louis Stevenson, the author of Treasure Island, Kidnapped, and The Strange Case of Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde, was a prolific writer. But apparently he didn't like to write. As he put it, "I love having written."

I admit that when it comes to Christian devotion, there are too many days when I say, "I love having prayed." I think of myself as a committed Christian, but many days prayer is more duty than delight, certainly not something I bound out of bed and eagerly begin. But I do admit to often being happy once I have prayed. It seems I like the idea of prayer more than prayer itself.

I know this is true because of the mental battles I fight upon first waking up. I often hear the enticements of the Enemy: Why not just sleep in; you deserve it; you've been working hard. You're not going to get much done if you're tired all day.

Or: You really need to get that SoulWork column written; writing is a type of prayer, after all.

Or: Wouldn't it be more loving, more Christian to make your wife breakfast than to piously pray by yourself?

And those are just the opening lines of a book I could write: Excuses I've Entertained to Avoid Prayer. But it would never get published. Way too long.

The reason I don't like to pray is simple. I don't really love God. I do love the idea of loving God. It would be a fine, fine thing to love God, I believe. But I have to face it: One reason I go to church is not because I already love God but because I'd like to love him. I'm afraid I have the same reaction to church as I do to prayer. Lots of debate about whether I should go. Going most Sundays because I should go. And when it's over, a lot of times I can say, "I love having worshiped."

Don't get me wrong. I'm as devout as the next Christian. Or I should say that it's been my experience that the next Christian struggles as I do. We love having prayed. We love having worshipped. We don't love God as much as we like the idea of loving God.

We shouldn't scold ourselves for this. There's no point in shaming ourselves because we don't love God. To begin with, you can't make yourself love someone or some activity. You either love or you don't.

I know a young man who took up basketball in high school and was totally taken with the sport. He spent hours practicing spin moves, jump shots, and behind the back passes. One day an older man complimented him on his discipline. The young man was startled. He never thought of basketball practice as discipline. He practiced because he loved it. And the love came to him unbidden.

You either love to pray or you don't. You either love to serve the poor or you don't. You either love to evangelize or you don't. You either love God or you don't. You can't make these things happen. The love has to grow inside us, like a child grows in a mother's womb. It's something like being born again, said Jesus (John 3).

You can't make yourself be conceived, let alone be born again. This is something that happens to you, over which you have no control whatsoever. You can't even prepare for it—as if an egg could "prepare" to be met by a particular sperm. All the egg can do is wait for something to arrive that will make its life complete.

Maybe that's why so many times in the Bible people are told to be still (Ps. 46) and wait (Acts 1). It's why many traditions have created a whole season—Advent, the first and defining season of the church year—and say it's all about waiting.

But just because we don't love as we wish, and have no ability to do anything about it, doesn't mean we should despair.





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Displaying 1–5 of 18 comments

Tulsa Mark

December 24, 2009  8:26am

I responded to Mark's 24 Dec column, perhaps rating it too low, and followed the link to this earlier column. I'm concerned. What is Galli's overall aim? I find this statement almost utterly unacceptable: "We obey God, yes, but only because in willing, joyful obedience do we find ourselves in places where he shows up in wonder and love." Is it descriptive -- this is, in fact, why people do X; or is it hortatory -- this is the right reason we should do X? I believe Galli intends the latter, and that is why my heart deflates: Obedience to God should be motivated entirely subjectively -- we obey in order that we may experience God's showing up in wonder and love. I delight in God's "showing up" with just those qualities evident, but I dare not explicitly obey him on this narrow warrant. God is to be obeyed because he is God. Period. The euphoric effects of such obedience and my desire and ability to obey are important but secondary to God's being God and therefore meriting obedience.

Ephrem Hagos

December 23, 2009  6:59am

Yes, one can choose to obey or disobey the Prescription by Jesus Chirst for being born-again centered on a point of change (critical mass) at his death on the cross. Nicodemus obeyed and followed up all the way with better than expected results (John 3: 1-21; 19: 30-42). Mark Galli, on the other hand, writes "You can't make yourself be ... born again. This is something that happens to you, over which you have no control whatsoever". What a contradiction!

debdessaso

December 21, 2009  11:41pm

Waiting for God has always been the hardest struggle for people. Those who don't believe in God usually look at the world around them and conclude that God doesn't exist--otherwise He'd intervene, right? On the other hand, people who claim to follow God often give up waiting and try to obtain salvation on their terms e.g. "I have heard the gospel and decided to make a decision for Jesus. Now he owes me salvation." When it comes to a relationship with God, He is the Initiator at both ends--His and ours. Even the faith to respond to the gospel is a gift from God, not of ourselves! Another big struggle for Christians is to believe that everything necessary for salvation has been done in Christ without any of our help. All we can do is to respond in continual gratitude through lives lived in appreciation and imitation of the life of Christ. Anything else is a works gospel that diminishes the sacrifice and eternal intercession of Christ.

Delwyn Campbell

December 16, 2009  6:30pm

Were we commanded to feel affection (phileo), or to love (agapao)? God does not command us to feel, but to do. Love defined biblically, is not an adjective, but a verb; are you doing love? You love God, by doing what He says, and His instructions are not grievous. "He who believes obeys, and he who obeys believes."

newjdk7

December 12, 2009  10:53pm

"You can't make yourself be conceived, let alone be born again. This is something that happens to you, over which you have no control whatsoever". Don't buy into this lie. Reformed/Calvinistic monergism has crippled the mind of many, to many believers. Why would a Loving Heavenly Father who calls us to intimacy keep us at bay and in the dark? This contradicts the “Good News” message of Scripture. Draw near to God and He will draw near to you! (Jam 4:8) For this reason we also thank God without ceasing, because when you received the word of God which you heard from us, you welcomed it not as the word of men, but as it is in truth, the word of God, which also effectively works in you who believe.(1 Thes 2:13) “Draw near” and “believe” are in the active voice. The active voice represents the subject as the doer of the action. You are the subject of these verses. Your response to God’s grace is what makes the difference. Jesus showed up and finished His part on the cross 2000 years ago!

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