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North of Hope: A Daughter's Arctic Journey
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5 Stars - Masterpiece
Book Title
North of Hope: A Daughter's Arctic Journey
Release Date
April 9, 2013
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Before we begin, grab a map. Preferably the paper kind; the old atlas that's been on your shelf for years or the AAA guidebooks your grandmother gave to you. Google Maps will do, in a pinch.

Flip to Alaska. Now look up—up, up, higher up. Do you see Barter Island? Between Barrow (the farthest North American City) and the Canadian border, it sits near the mouth of the several meandering rivers. That is where we are headed.

The journey begins in Kaktovik, Alaska. Perched at the northeastern tip of the state, Kaktovik is the jumping-off point for adventurers rafting down the Hulahula River. It is well within the Arctic Circle, a hauntingly beautiful backdrop for a June river trip, perfect for spotting Dall Sheep and musk ox against the Brooks Range Mountains.

Shannon Huffman Polson is in Kaktovik with her adopted brother Ned and his colleague Sally, preparing to retrace the trip taken a year earlier by her father and stepmother. It will be both tribute and quest: Richard and Kathy Huffman were killed by a grizzly bear before they could finish their expedition.

Polson has returned for "a journey over the jagged edge of loss." Her maps, like ours, can only get her so far. The rest of the way will require courage and commitment over rocky terrain.

"I lived for his attention," Polson writes about her father in North of Hope: A Daughter's Arctic Journey. Polson's parents divorced when she was twelve years old, a move that shattered her life and those of her two brothers. Her father remarried several years later and Polson fought Kathy for his time and attention. Above all else, this is a book about fathers and daughters: the trappings of that relationship, the desperate wanting for approval, the silent competition with a new wife.

Pilgrims of the Depths

By any standards, Polson's achievements are remarkable: A BA in English literature from Duke, an MBA from Dartmouth's Tuck School, membership in the first group of female attack pilots the Army had ever deployed. But against the backdrop of her relationship with her father, we wonder how much she embarked on the Alaskan voyage for herself and how much for him, or some combination of the two.

Polson's narration is violently beautiful, from capturing the wild splendor of Arctic Alaska to asking questions required by pain: "Pain too much to handle also comes with exquisite beauty, as common as dirt, as unexpected as grace. Are we meant to be pilgrims of the depths?"

Polson undertakes this journey—the revisiting of the trip on which her father and stepmother died, as well as the telling of the story—as both catharsis and means of understanding. She navigates grief with characteristic boldness. She does not pity herself, although she makes concessions: "There was a time when I thought I would be happy if I died," she writes. "In these Arctic mountains…I wanted to suffer. I wanted to live, so that I could suffer, believing that if I was hurting more, I was somehow closer to Dad and Kathy…I wanted that pain." There are no easy answers here, no pat Christian responses about the deceased being in a better place. Polson makes us read between the lines, looking for God in the middle of tragedy just as she has, walking the crooked path that healing takes.

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