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For nearly nine years I was on senior staff at one of the largest evangelical churches in the suburbs of Chicago. We were highly organized, and prided ourselves on excellence in all of our ministry outreaches.

My drive to work every day was about 30 minutes, a commute that took me past many small churches, churches I then considered insignificant. As their tiny, sometimes run-down buildings sailed by, I would think, What's the point of these churches? Is anything even happening there?

Turns out God had a way of shaking me loose of my mega church arrogance. In a poetic justice kind of way, I found myself pastoring one of "those churches," the seemingly insignificant, small congregations where God, in my view, wasn't at work.

It's been five years and I'm still the senior pastor of a small church, a congregation that may never be profiled in leading evangelical publications, one that will probably never be held up as a model ministry for church planters and revitalizers. However, I don't consider churches such as ours as insignificant anymore. Though God is still chiseling off my big-church pride, I realize just how important all churches are to Kingdom work.

Ministry jealousy

Some have a bias against mega-churches. They see them as a symbol of everything that is wrong with today's modern evangelical church. I don't subscribe to this theory. And yet I have also disabused myself of the notion that unless a church is huge, the Spirit of God is absent.

I recently spoke to a longtime pastor in our area. He's pastored large churches and small churches. Today he leads a midsize congregation. Among the valuable pieces of advice he gave me was this surprising caution. "Dan," he said, "Watch yourself for ministry jealousy. If you read too many of the leading church growth and leadership books, you'll slowly begin to feel that the work you are currently called to is somehow insignificant and even unworthy of God."

This is sage advice, because I do find I have a tendency to grow discouraged after I've returned from a popular conference or after I've read the latest bestselling ministry tome. I think the discouragement comes from the knowledge that the church I now lead is not what it should be. In some ways this is healthy. Pastors must constantly be setting vision and moving their people beyond their level of comfort in fulfilling the Great Commission. On the other hand, too much exposure to the "successful" church models can breed a deep and paralyzing sense of jealousy. I think it fuels the wanderlust in pastors who, after a few difficult years, start searching for a more success-rich environment.

I've even been lectured by my wife, who after seeing my downcast spirit after a visit to a large church or after a conference will say to me, "If these events are going to get you more discouraged, you need to stop going." In this way I'm tempted by ministry success like my children are tempted by things in the store they cannot have. I've learned, as a parent, that the more I parade my children up and down the aisles of stores whose shelves are lined with toys they cannot have, the more I have to fight their discontentment and envy. Small church pastors like me can make an idol of what we think ministry success looks like.

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Posted: September 9, 2013

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Richard Pheasant

September 13, 2013  4:21am

"For some mega churches, that's the conversion rate of one small group in one weekend." I doubt that very much. Many mega-churches score very low for evangelism and prayer, though I have no doubt there are many exceptions. The beauty of being 'small' is usually better community, better relationships, more believers able to be involved with ministry and, most importantly, better discipleship - which is really what church should be about (Jesus discipled twelve - what makes us think we can manage more? Although many are simply not discipling.) If mega-churches have small / home groups then this may well be happening, but, again, statistics show that only a minority of believers at mega-churches go to small groups. I say this to encourage you and leaders of small churches (from congregations of two or three to thirty or forty) and not to condemn large church. Also, I learned sometime ago to try to not compare - it either makes you inferior or superior, neither of which are healthy!

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