Sign up for our free newsletter:

 1 of 2

Nancy and I have always had the same goal for Christmas: a celebration that's more spiritual and less commercial. The problem is we haven't agreed on how to make that happen.

Two years ago, Nancy thought Christmas would be more meaningful if we made gifts for everyone instead of buying them. This sounded good to me because I wanted a simpler, less-expensive Christmas and because making gifts was always an important part of my family's holiday tradition when I was a child.

But as Christmas drew closer, I was having second thoughts. Rather than limiting the gifts to one per person, Nancy went overboard. She created several presents for each family member. And she didn't include me in the planning. I felt left out as she tried to do everything herself, and Nancy became more and more uptight.

All the tension finally came to a head the Sunday before Christmas. Nancy was so busy we hadn't even put up our Christmas tree. I wanted to help, but I was afraid to get in her way. On impulse, I tried to ease the tension by being affectionate. Boy, was that a mistake! She snapped, "Don't touch me right now! Can't you see how stressed I am?"

That afternoon I left the house for a while to let things cool down. Despite our good intentions, something had gone terribly wrong.

I've always wanted to experience the joy and spiritual significance of the season. But with all the presents to buy, meals to plan and parties to attend, the "true meaning of Christmas" has usually gotten lost in the shuffle.

A few years ago, I decided things were going to be different. By making our gifts, we'd have a simple, meaningful Christmas. I wanted the holiday to be perfect, something everyone would remember. It was something to remember all right, but not all the memories are pleasant.

What started as a good idea became an obsession. Hand-crafted ornaments and jewelry, homemade bath salts, painted sweatshirts—you name it, I did it. My kitchen turned into Santa's Workshop as I spent all my evenings and weekends working on gifts. The plans for holiday meals quickly got out of hand, too, as I planned a Martha Stewart-style celebration for the whole family.

By the time Christmas rolled around, I was a wreck. December 25th became a deadline, and I was racing against the clock to get everything done. I was too anxious even to think about enjoying the holiday.

The fight Michael and I had just before Christmas was terrible. He was just trying to help when I exploded. In those miserable hours after our argument, I wondered, "If this Christmas is so perfect, why do I feel so awful?"

next page... |  1 of 2

				Try 3 Issues of Christianity Today Free! Name Street Address City/State/Zip E-mail Address Subscribe to Christianity Today and get 3 free trial issues. No credit card required. Please allow 4-6 weeks for delivery. Offer valid in U.S. only. If you decide you want to keep Christianity Today coming, honor your invoice for just $19.95 and receive nine more issues, a full year in all. If not, simply write "cancel" across the invoice and return it. The three trial issues are yours to keep, regardless.

RSS Feed   RSS Help