God loves to use wounded, insecure warriors like us to do his kingdom work. The Bible is filled with wonderful examples of people who felt inadequate, unqualified, insecure, and fearful when God called them. Remember when God called Moses to lead the Israelites out of Egypt? Moses made one excuse after another out of fear: What if they won’t listen to me? I’m not very good with words. Lord, please! Send anyone else (Exodus 4:4, 10, 13).
I’m embarrassed to admit that I’ve said those same things to God. I realize now they’re all based in fear. The key to conquering our fear is first to admit that we have it and how it’s affecting us. Once we’ve acknowledged our fear, we can pray and ask God for help. We must realize, though, that having faith or fear is always our choice. It may take time to cultivate the pattern of choosing faith, but over time it gets easier as we learn to put our trust in God. After all, the one who is in us is far greater than the one who is in the world (1 John 4:4).
It grieves the Spirit to see how many women have been held back and slowed down in doing kingdom work because of their fear. For women especially, there is still so little support and so much pushback. I know it held me back for far too long.
Despite my insecurity and fear, God has continued to show up and prove that he can indeed use anyone he chooses for his kingdom work. My prayer has always been that people would see the fruit of my ministry and immediately look to God and say, “Well, if you can use her, you must be a powerful God who could use me too!”
These days, what scares me the most is the thought of how close I came to letting fear win out and hold me back from the work God called me to. My life, and the lives of the people in our church, have been impacted in countless ways, and we almost missed out. I pray that God will help you overcome your fear so that you won’t miss out on all he has for you.
Linda A. Wurzbacher is Lead Pastor of Blessed Hope Community Church in Rochester, New York.