How do we stand "new" when we are broken? When we are bent, blown, burned . . . what comes to our surface? I am moved by [a] praise song at church. . . . My soul responds to the plea to God: "Break my heart for what breaks yours." I want to be made into his image, but I fear getting burned.
[The pain and turbulence that attended the] birth of my twins, this crucible-moment in my marriage, cracked both my husband and me open so wide and set in motion a change so radical as to reorient our entire lives. Together, our shared trauma brought to the surface other traumas, some long buried, some oh so hard to even speak—surfaced them and purged them and [smoothed away] the impurities. This process, the trusting, deepened our faith and gave us a newly won perspective, a brighter, clearer vision. Most of all, it gave us a greater conviction of the absolute restoration to come.
There are times in life, as death and near-death show us most poignantly, when you finally fully realize that you can't take anything with you. Not even a slender power bar. Not even credentials, or knowledge, or feeling. And that is when you are laid the most bare so he can do the most work. As Brennan Manning states, "It is only the reality of death that is powerful enough to quicken people out of the sluggishness of everyday life and into an active search for what life is really about." . . .
Trauma teaches you that life is precious. The very here and now is precious, insofar as it is melting back toward its original dignity and glory: being made in the image of God. Our hesitation to live it to the fullest in God blemishes the gift with "impurities," including, as the metaphysical poets often named ...1
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