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Tough Times, Tough Questions

I trudged to the mailbox after a draining counseling session. I hoped to find a letter from the search committee of a big church. Or a large care package with giant homemade cookies and cheery notes from grateful church members. Or a check made out to me with an attached note: "Dear Pastor, consider this $1,000 a small token of our love for you. … "

No such luck.

The mailbox contained two medical bills from my wife's surgery, a phone bill, and the quarterly car insurance premium. Seeing the medical bills made my head throb. The church treasurer recently had bounced a check to the insurance company; we weren't sure if my wife's surgery was covered. The pile felt heavy as I dumped it on the kitchen counter.

In seventeen years of marriage and ministry, my wife, Joy, and I have had our share of "bad mail days." Each one raises the "I wonder" questions about God's provision for us.


When stress piles up as high as my stack of bills, I start wondering ...

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