I err on the side of the logical. I'm confident, not cowering. I'm a problem-solver, not a natural empathizer. I have the advantage of being just "masculine" enough. I, like many women (even a disproportionate number of women) who make it into academic theology, feel more naturally at home with my many guy friends than my few girl friends. Sometimes it can feel that I'm accepted in my guild as an "exceptional" woman, not like those typical, "lesser" women.
So I think about myself and wonder how I feel about these advantages, the tiny ribcage and the emotionally quiet mind and all the others. It seems I wouldn't be where I am today without them. Have they blessed me or betrayed my kind? Should I thank them for giving me an advantage or resent them for supporting the system that gives others disadvantages?
Maybe there's no finding out the "should." Maybe I need just to accept that they did some dirty work for me.
Kessia Reyne Bennett has served as a university chaplain, an evangelist, a pastor, and a social media professional. She is currently pursuing a PhD in systematic theology from Trinity Evangelical Divinity School. This article is adapted from her blog and used with permission.