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Living & Effective Podcast Season 2, episode 4 (37 min)

Why We Demand Answers from God After a Tragedy

Bargaining is our attempt to regain control of our lives.

Living & Effective Podcast Season 2, episode 4 (37 min)

Why We Demand Answers from God After a Tragedy

Bargaining is our attempt to regain control of our lives.

New to the series? This is a bingeable podcast meant to be listened to in order. Check out Living and Effective season 2 from the beginning.

“Father, if you are willing, take this cup away from me—nevertheless, not my will, but yours, be done.” (Luke 22:42, CSB)

If it is Your will that Thy will be done
As it is in heaven, take from me this burden.

I want to be the exception, the one
Whose faith defies every fleshly reason.

What is the cost I am paying now to
Live in these bones You have called to great life?

If the temple of my being is flung
Wide-open to the shore, then I will live.

I will trade what You ask if only I
Live until death is no more than a myth.

I will give you my hair in exchange for
Your mercy over my sin-filled body.

You came so that I may have life to live.
Unbind my small hands from behind my back.

You request my name and rewrite it anew
For I have wrestled with more than a man.

I have wrestled with the kin-dom at hand.
My hip will remember the weight of this

As I limp toward the break of daylight.
I hear an August hymn call to me now.

The injuries of this world are fleeting.
Let me live to see tomorrow draw near.

Living and Effective is produced by CT Creative Studio in partnership with the Christian Standard Bible .

Carolina Hinojosa-Cisneros is a Chicana storyteller. She is the 2019 recipient of the Rubem Alves Award in Theopoetics. She is a graduate student of English with emphases in literature, creative writing, and social justice at Our Lady of the Lake University.