In an essay that originally appeared in Family Circle magazine, America's beloved poet Maya Angelou described the birth of her first and only child, a son named Guy.
When I was 16, a boy in high school evinced interest in me, so I had sex with him—just once. And after I came out of that room, I thought, Is that all there is to it? My goodness, I'll never do that again! Then, when I found out I was pregnant, I went to the boy and asked him for help, but he said it wasn't his baby and he didn't want any part of it.
I was scared to pieces. Back then, if you had money, there were some girls who got abortions, but I couldn't deal with that idea. Oh, no. No. I knew there was somebody inside me. So I decided to keep the baby.
[After I tried to hide my pregnancy from my mother], I'll never forget what she [asked me]: "Now tell me this—do you love the boy?" I said no. "Does he love you?" I said no. "Then there's no point in ruining three lives. We are going to have our baby!" [She] was very loving. Very accepting. Not one minute of recrimination. And I never felt any shame.
I'm telling you that the best decision I ever made was keeping that baby! Yes, absolutely. Guy was a delight from the start—so good, so bright, and I can't imagine my life without him. At 17 I got a job as a cook and later as a nightclub waitress … My mother … said, "Remember this: You can always come home." She kept that door open. And every time life kicked me in the belly, I would go home for a few weeks.
I struggled, sure. We lived hand-to-mouth, but it was really heart-to-hand. Guy had love and laughter and a lot of good reading and poetry as a child. Having my son brought out the best in me and enlarged my life. Whatever he missed, he himself is a great father today … Years later, when I was married, I wanted to have more children, but I couldn't conceive. Isn't it wonderful that I had a child at 16? Praise God!
