Church Life

How a Missionary Family in Lebanon Produced an American Hero

Bill Eddy’s Arabic acumen served US interests and forged Middle East ties.

William Alfred Eddy

William Alfred Eddy

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This is part two of the Eddy family’s story. To read about the Eddy missionaries in Sidon, click here.

William Alfred Eddy was an American hero. Nicknamed “Bill,” he received the Navy Cross, two Silver Stars, and two Purple Hearts for his service in World War I. During World War II, he quit his job as a college president to reenlist and helped plan the Allied invasion of North Africa. Later, as a diplomat, he advanced Franklin Roosevelt’s agenda by forging the US alliance with Saudi Arabia.

“Eddy (hereafter ‘Bill’) managed to pack four or five lives into a single lifetime,” wrote Princeton University’s alumni magazine about its former doctoral graduate. One of those lives began as a missionary kid to an American family in the Levant.

Part one of this series chronicled the Eddys’ multigenerational service in Lebanon, particularly its southern city of Sidon. Active in evangelism, education, and medical work, some of the Eddys died on the field and are buried in local evangelical cemeteries.

So was Bill. But while his gravestone inscription marks the rank of colonel in the US Marine Corps, it doesn’t include the number of years he “served the Lord” like his family members’ gravestones.  The modern Eddy biographer, Muhammad Abu Zaid, didn’t criticize either approach. He called Bill the American “Lawrence of Arabia” and sympathized with his family’s earlier religious commitments.

In Forgotten Pages from the Ancient History of Sidon, published in Arabic by the Baptists of Lebanon, the president of the Sunni Muslim Sharia Law Court in Sidon described the religious and social development of Protestant ministry through building churches, schools, and clinics. Bill, he contrasted, pursued his country’s political objectives in the Arab world.

But today, evangelicals number only one percent of the Lebanese population. And polls indicate America’s poor reputation in the Middle East. Secular or spiritual, how does Abu Zaid evaluate the Eddys’ presence in his homeland?

“I felt sorry for them,” he told CT. “They didn’t succeed.”

The story continues from part one, with William Alfred, age 10, watching his father William King die suddenly on a preaching tour. After this traumatic experience, Bill moved to America and eventually enrolled in a Presbyterian university. Two years later, he transferred to Princeton and graduated in 1917. When the US entered World War I, he enlisted, fought in the tide-turning battle of Belleau Wood, and suffered a leg injury that made him limp for the rest of his life. After receiving his PhD in 1922, he joined the American University in Cairo, and one year later, he became chair of the English department.

Bill remained devout in his Christian faith—he even memorized large parts of the Quran while resisting Muslim efforts to convert him to Islam. In his memoirs, he wrote that he viewed his life as a secular extension of his family’s missionary service. After further academic work at Dartmouth and Hobart College in upstate New York, his military career continued in the US Office of Strategic Services, the forerunner of the CIA.

But there, he acted in ways he found antithetical to his faith.

Bill’s early espionage helped the Allies turn the tide against the Nazis in North Africa. To destabilize their local authority, he devised a plan to hire French operatives to assassinate local German and Italian agents, shielding the US from public responsibility. And in the Spanish Sahara, he allowed communist rebels to believe that America would facilitate the post-war overthrow of the fascist government on the mainland in Europe—knowing full well the US would not honor this promise. He later compared his deception to Peter denying Jesus.

“We deserve to go to hell when we die,” Bill later wrote.

Bill serving as translator between King Abdul-Aziz Al Saud and President Franklin Roosevelt.U.S. Army Signal Corps / Wikimedia Commons
Bill (kneeling) serving as translator between King Abdul-Aziz Al Saud and President Franklin Roosevelt.

Toward the end of the war, Bill served as head of the US diplomatic mission in Saudi Arabia, where he met King Abdul-Aziz Al Saud. Given Bill’s background in Arabic and knowledge of Islam, the two developed a rapport. On Valentine’s Day, 1945, aboard a naval cruiser in the Suez Canal, Bill served as translator between the king and President Franklin Roosevelt, where the two world leaders bonded over their shared disabilities.  The meeting cemented the US-Saudi alliance and displaced Great Britain as the major power in the oil-rich Gulf.

Throughout his career, Bill frequently deployed the cultural acumen and linguistic skills he had first gained as a missionary kid on behalf of American power. He believed US interests aligned well with the Arab world and supported a pipeline from Saudi Arabia to Lebanon that exported oil to Europe. Such infrastructure, he maintained, benefitted every party.

But his analysis did not always square with that of the local populations. In the Gulf, he designed a plan to manipulate opinion in favor of a joint US-Saudi oil venture by feigning Arab authorship of letters to leading politicians. In Lebanon, he strengthened pro-American policies of the Christian president Camille Chamoun that eventually contributed to civil conflict in Beirut.

On the other hand, many Arabs would appreciate Bill’s other diplomatic efforts, even if they ultimately failed. In 1948, US President Harry Truman became the first world leader to recognize the State of Israel. In advance of this decision, Bill resigned from his position and quietly left the State Department as one of Truman’s advisors. He was “embarrassed,” his grandnephew Nick Eddy told CT, having assured Saudi leaders they would be consulted on the matter. Bill later wrote publicly that American support for Zionism would damage its relations with the Arab world.

Toward the end of his life, he settled permanently in Beirut, consulted for oil companies, and even visited Pope Pius XII at the Vatican. Bill died in 1962 at age 66. President John F. Kennedy recognized his “devoted and selfless consecration to the service of mankind.”

Abu Zaid told CT that his respect for Bill and his father, William King, doesn’t hinge on policy. William King served his Lord, as Abu Zaid, a Muslim sheikh, serves Allah. William Alfred served his country, as Abu Zaid, a Muslim judge, serves Lebanon. Both Eddys, he said, were true to their different callings.

Other Middle East analysis is critical. Scholars such as Sayyid Qutb in Egypt, Ali Shariati in Iran, and Abul A’la al-Maududi in Pakistan interpreted both missionary service and diplomatic overtures as meddling within a weakened Islamic world. And Edward Said, a Palestinian Anglican, described them as motivated by Western cultural superiority and in support of its colonialist project.

But many ordinary people appreciate the Eddy missions heritage. The National Evangelical Institute for Girls and Boys, the school they founded in Sidon, has an 1,800-student body. Two-thirds of students are Muslim, including from many of the leading families of the city. Each graduation begins with a message and prayer by a leader in Lebanon’s Presbyterian synod. And last year, the class of 2024 renovated the graves of its missionary founders, whose portraits are hung proudly in the school entryway.

This cemetery sparked Abu Zaid’s book when David Robinson (then the Muslim-Christian relations specialist for World Vision) asked the sheikh’s help to visit the final resting place of his uncle Bill. The scent of lemon blossoms wafted in the springtime air. Who are these Americans buried in my city? the devout judge wondered. His research led him to a remarkable conclusion: Muslims embraced the Eddy family, as they embraced Lebanon.

Turned away by many Arab Christians, William King, the missionary, chose to be buried in Sunni-majority Sidon. Dedicated to an American agenda, William Alfred, the diplomat, desired the same. The sheikh said he believes everyone should be able to preach and serve from their faith, since he claims the freedom to do so for Islam. Muslims may debate the impact of foreign service, but for him, the local mandate is clear.

“I will not advise the missionary,” Abu Zaid said. “But I will do what my religion tells me to do—welcome all and be hospitable.”

Ideas

Eight Divine Names in One Glorious Passage

Hebrew terms for God appear across the Old Testament. The prophet Isaiah brings them all together.

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If you were a child of Christian parents in the 1980s or 1990s, there is a decent chance that at some point you memorized the Hebrew names for God. Like Jehovah Jireh, which means “the Lord will provide” (Gen. 22:14). Or Jehovah Rapha: “The Lord heals” (Ex. 15:26). Or Jehovah Nissi: “The Lord is my banner” (17:15).

There are eight such names altogether. (Besides the examples from Genesis and Exodus, they appear in Leviticus 20:8, Judges 6:24, Psalm 23:1, Jeremiah 23:6, and Ezekiel 48:35.) Learning these names—and in my case singing songs about them (with gradually accelerating Jewish melodies)—was just something we all did. Ever since, I have been unable to read the passages where Scripture introduces them without thinking of the names themselves, the songs they inspired, and the stories that gave them meaning. Clearly they made quite an impression; I have even written book chapters on all eight of them.

Until recently, though, I had never noticed that there is one passage in Scripture where the eight come together. And it is not just any passage, but arguably the most Cross-centered, Christ-shaped, emotionally resonant, and theologically significant text in the entire Old Testament—namely Isaiah 52–53.

This wonderful passage has two parts. The first half summons Zion to wake up, get dressed, shake off the dust, and celebrate the news that her salvation has come (52:1–12). The second half is a breathtaking poem on how this salvation has come about: through the unexpected, substitutionary, desolate, yet God-ordained suffering of his righteous, sin-bearing servant (52:13–53:12).

Readers familiar with both the Hebrew names for God and the song of the servant may have already noticed some connections between them. Take Isaiah 53:5, for instance: “The punishment that brought us peace was on him, and by his wounds we are healed” (emphasis added throughout). This verse portrays the servant as both Jehovah Shalom (“the Lord is peace”) and Jehovah Rapha (“the Lord who heals you”). “We all, like sheep, have gone astray,” Isaiah continues in the next verses, evoking Jehovah Rohi (“the Lord is my shepherd”) and showing that our shepherd has become a lamb, led to the slaughter to carry our iniquities.

Two of the parallels are more obvious in Hebrew than in English. “After he has suffered, he will see [raah] the light of life and be satisfied” (53:11), Isaiah concludes, using the same root as Jehovah Jireh, which, beyond “the Lord will provide,” might be translated as “the Lord will see to it.” Just as God saw to Abraham’s need for a substitute as he prepared to sacrifice Isaac, Christ has seen to our need for a substitute who can satisfy the wages of our sin.

More startling are the allusions to Jehovah Nissi (“the Lord is my banner”), when Isaiah declares that “he will be raised and lifted up [nasa]” (52:13) and “he has carried [nasa] our sorrows” (53:4, ESV). Jesus lifts our sins by being lifted up on the cross, which makes him our banner, our lifted one: a standard raised high in the battle, promising shelter from our enemies.

The connections run beyond the servant song, however. They begin at the start of chapter 52. Isaiah grounds his call to wake up and get dressed in beautiful clothes in the promise that Jerusalem will once again be a holy city, free from anything unclean or impure (vv. 1, 11). His other invitation, to hear and celebrate the saving message being carried over the mountains by messengers with beautiful feet, springs from the fact that the Lord is returning to Zion to live among his people (vv. 7–12). In other words, Isaiah is saying, Awake, awake, because Jehovah M’Kaddesh (“the Lord is your holiness”)! Break forth into singing, because Jehovah Shammah (“the Lord is there”)!

Finally, as the passage reaches its triumphant conclusion, we discover that God is Jehovah Tsidkenu (“the Lord is our righteousness”). Isaiah 53:11 underscores the effect of the servant’s healing, shepherding, providing, and peacemaking work: “By his knowledge shall the righteous one, my servant, make many to be accounted righteous, and he shall bear their iniquities” (ESV). It would be hard to find a clearer summary of what it means for God to be our righteousness. It is not just that Christ is righteous in himself, although that is gloriously true as well. It is that he makes us to be accounted righteous with him and through him, justifying the ungodly as he bears our sins and “[makes] intercession for the transgressors” (v. 12).

Considering these parallels plunges us into deep waters. If they hold up—and I think they do, although it is ultimately for each reader to judge—they suggest yet another reason to marvel at the message of Isaiah 52–53. The Suffering Servant, the Lord Jesus Christ, has put the providing, healing, lifting, sanctifying, peacemaking, shepherding, justifying, and indwelling of Israel’s God on perfect display through his death on the cross. Awake, awake, and break forth into singing!

Andrew Wilson is teaching pastor at King’s Church London and author of Remaking the World: How 1776 Created the Post-Christian West.

News

Saudi Arabian Prison Frees Kenyan After ‘Blood Money’ Payout

A Christian mother relied on the Muslim practice of “diyat” to bring her son home alive.

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Kenyan mother Dorothy Kweyu prayed 14 years for her son’s release from a Saudi Arabian prison. Her son, Stephen “Stevo” Munyakho, spent more than a decade on death row for killing Yemeni coworker Abdul Halim Mujahid Makrad Saleh in a dispute over money in 2011. According to Munyakho, Saleh attacked him with a knife, stabbing him twice before Munyakho grabbed the knife and stabbed Saleh in the chest.

Munyakho claimed self-defense, and at first Saudi courts, which run on sharia law, handed him a five-year jail sentence for manslaughter. Then Saleh’s family appealed, citing the “right to retaliate” for the loss of Saleh and demanding the death penalty. The courts responded by changing the conviction to murder—a sentence punishable by beheading.

“I kept telling God, ‘God, save my child, and spare me the pain and the ignominy of receiving my beheaded child,’” Kweyu told local media. Sometimes during her weekly phone calls to Munyakho in prison, he would say, “Mummy, today we saw darkness,” meaning one of the death row prisoners had been executed. He said the government executed more than 100 fellow inmates during his first year on death row.

Kenya’s foreign affairs secretary said all legal appeals for Munyakho had been exhausted. Saudi authorities set the execution date. Then the victim’s family agreed to consider a provision under sharia law: The court could commute Munyakho’s sentence if his family paid them diyat, or “blood money,” to compensate for Saleh’s death.

Saleh’s family initially asked for more than 350 million Kenyan shillings (nearly $3 million USD).

Kweyu told Citizen TV Kenya last year that Saleh’s family increased their demands 10 times and exceeded what Islamic law allows: “If this was a proper Quranic sentence, Stevo should be back now. The Quran requires a hundred camels, and by my calculation we only needed 11 million Kenyan shillings [$85,000 USD] to give the Yemenis.”

Blood-money payments are alien to many Kenyans, four out of five of whom identify as Christian. Islamic law in countries such as Saudi Arabia categorizes manslaughter and murder as quesas crimes, offenses for which victims have the right to retaliation equal to the harm done—such as a life for a life. Courts can pardon these crimes if a victim’s family accepts blood money as an alternative to legal penalties.

Though intended by the Quran as a form of mercy, blood money can complicate justice. Some Arab journalists have suggested exorbitant blood-money demands in Saudi Arabia—driven by greed and revenge—abuse the system and unfairly send families of death row inmates into poverty.

While Saudi Arabia’s judicial system calls for fair trials and punishments—at least on paper—judges apply their own interpretations of sharia law. In many cases, judges can set penalties at their discretion. The US State Department warned this leads to discrimination against noncitizens and non-Muslims as well as leading to inconsistent or extreme penalties, including the death penalty for nonviolent offenses such as sorcery and adultery. Appeals courts usually affirm the judgments of lower courts, making blood-money agreements inmates’ last chance for pardon.

Kenyan courts don’t accept blood money as a solution, but Muslim communities in northeastern Kenya do. According to Ishmael Kulu, an ethnic Somali living in Nairobi, Kenya, paying blood money began as a Somali cultural practice before Islam came to the nation.

“It was a dispute-resolution mechanism that was used in order to avoid revenge when a death occurred,” Kulu said. In Somali culture, when a person accused a kinsman of murder, the whole clan had to pay for the crime. Traditional elders from the affected clans would agree on a payment based on the age, marital status, and gender of the victim.

In rural, Muslim-majority areas of Kenya, people still use the blood-money system, though Kulu said that in towns “people prefer the judicial court processes.” Since clans make the payments, Kulu explained small clans feel the system favors big clans, which can easily raise any amount demanded.

Sasha, a Somali Christian convert from northern Kenya (whose real name CT agreed to withhold due to threats to her safety from her Muslim community), agreed: “Without the backing of a strong family or clan, you will suffer.”

She told CT her community handles most murder and injury cases outside the Kenyan courts. Although the blood-money system works in remote places without courts, Sasha said it is prone to manipulation and places the amount demanded for a dead woman at half that of a dead man: “The Islamic system is not just to women.”

In a 2005 incident, two clans clashed in Kenya’s northern Mandera County, resulting in 50 deaths. Clans agreed to pay 1 million Kenyan shillings (about $7,700 USD) or 100 camels valued at 10,000 Kenyan shillings ($80 USD) each in compensation for the death of a man. They agreed to pay half that for a woman or child.

Dorothy Kweyu appealed to the Kenyan government to negotiate for a delayed execution and lower blood-money payment. The victim’s family settled for 129 million Kenyan shillings ($1 million USD), but Kweyu could only fundraise 15 percent of the total (about $150,000 USD). In March, the government and the charity Muslim World League paid the amount in full on behalf of Munyakho, who converted to Islam while in prison.

Kweyu said she rolled around on the floor of her Nairobi home in joy and disbelief—her son was coming home alive. She credited her Christian faith and Presbyterian community at St. Andrew’s Church with getting her through her son’s ordeal: “All this time, God kept me going. I was surrounded by very prayerful people.”

Saudi authorities released Munyakho on July 22. He returned to Kenya on July 29, landing in Nairobi around 1 a.m. Family members, friends, and government officials greeted him, some with tears and dancing. But Kweyu said there’s one thing the blood-money payment didn’t resolve.

“I genuinely wanted to go see [Saleh’s wife] and seek her forgiveness,” she said. “Even though I was not physically involved in what happened, Stevo is still my child. So I wanted to go seek forgiveness on his behalf.”

Culture

Why Fans Trust Forrest Frank

The enormously popular Christian artist says he experienced miraculous healing. His parasocial friends say “amen.”

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Last week, worship artist Cory Asbury (who wrote the popular song “Reckless Love”) posted a video to social media featuring some original music. He performed from a bed. The song was about God’s faithfulness during recovery from a vasectomy.

That sounds like something out of a weird-Christian-internet joke book, and it only makes sense in the context of a months-long, very online story about another Christian musician, Forrest Frank.

On July 19, Frank—whose song “Your Way’s Better” hit the Billboard Hot 100 earlier this year and who has become one of today’s most popular Christian artists—shared on social media that he had fractured his back while skateboarding.

“Dads, this is your sign to get off the stick,” Frank wrote in the caption of a post that included a video of himself in a hospital bed and a recording of the accident, captured by a home security camera. According to Frank, he had fractured his L3 and L4 vertebrae.

Two weeks later, Frank posted a video telling his millions of followers that he had woken up, forgotten to put on his back brace, and realized he wasn’t in pain: “Did we just witness a miracle happen or do i have the fastest bones OF ALL TIME”?

As if to preempt accusations of fraud, he posted a screenshot of what appears to be medical documentation of his diagnosis and a video of the x-ray that showed the initial fractures. “I have complete healing in my back,” he said.

On August 7, Frank gave his first post-injury performance to an enthusiastic crowd at the Iowa State Fair, becoming the first artist ever to sell out the venue.

The 30-year-old had embraced the accident even before his recovery. He recorded a tongue-in-cheek song, “God’s Got My Back,” days after the injury. He collaborated with a relatively unknown band, The Figs, to turn their parody of his music into a bona fide hit, “Lemonade” (and subsequently invited them to perform it with him live). Frank also teamed up with fellow Christian artist David Crowder (who coincidentally had just broken his leg) on a song about “standing on the rock” (pun definitely intended). 

Notably, there’s been very little public questioning of Frank’s integrity in the wake of his miraculous-healing claim. Maybe that’s because, at the time of his injury, he was arguably the most famous Christian musician of our moment. Fans know he wasn’t in need of a publicity stunt to promote his already-popular songs.

Shifting beliefs about the supernatural, especially among younger Christians, may also have something to do with the level of support. Contemporary Christian music (CCM) has always been an ecumenical endeavor, with artists and audiences including both cessationists and continuationists. Influential institutions like Calvary Chapel Costa Mesa (the California church that was a hub of activity during the Jesus People movement in the 1970s) explicitly avoided taking a side in the ongoing debate, allowing participation by artists and audiences with a range of beliefs about speaking in tongues, miracles, and prophecy.

But over the past 30 years, charismatic ideas have become more mainstream among Christian music’s core audience through the influence of megachurches like Hillsong and Bethel, whose leaders affirm the possibility of miraculous healings and visible manifestations of the work of the Holy Spirit. In the US, charismatic Christianity is growing more quickly than any other segment of the church, and recent studies suggest that Gen Z is more open to the possibility of the supernatural than preceding generations. More broadly, belief in miracles seems to have increased modestly in the US since the 1990s.

So maybe the celebratory online response to Frank’s miraculous recuperation suggests his fans see no reason to be suspicious or doubtful of miracles themselves, even ones they hear about online.

But I think the main takeaway from this injury saga is about Forrest Frank himself—about the power of parasocial relationships in the Christian-influencer sphere and about how Christian influencers are reforming the Christian entertainment landscape. Frank is a musician, but as many artists of his generation have found, success in today’s entertainment industry requires good music and good content. And a story of miraculous healing, of course, makes really compelling content.

CCM has long made room for drama and spectacle: Think of the theatrics of artists like Carman, the Dove Awards, and spinning drum sets. Altar calls and invitations to pray to receive Christ—often framed as public spiritual healings—have been fixtures of Christian concerts for decades.

But this is different; fans are “participating” in the miraculous via smartphone screen. The outpouring of enthusiasm around Frank’s story has become a kind of modern pilgrimage as followers flock to the digital location of a reported miracle. Millions of people have liked, shared, and commented, bringing themselves virtually closer to what they perceive as a holy site. Other artists and content creators have chimed in, riding the wave of attention and seeking proximity to the online action.

The state of the music industry right now is such that artists must self-promote on social media. And Christian musicians who fervently believe that they have good news to share know they will reach more people by generating views through viral content. It’s the same reality Billy Graham contended with as he sought to capitalize on developments in radio and television broadcasting.

Graham, like many evangelical media figures after him, decided that the potential pitfalls of mass media didn’t outweigh the potential value of figuring out its formats and learning to reach the people listening and watching.

For his part, Frank has become a master of online content. For years he has been able to attract attention on social media with trendy videos and musical hooks that seem written with short-form video in mind; fans use his songs to soundtrack their own posts.

That followers believe Frank’s claims of healing is evidence of the strong parasocial bond he has been able to forge with them online. They trust him. For some singers, a claim of miraculous healing could easily become a “jump the shark” moment for fans, causing loss of credibility. Followers, even the most devoted ones, are aware that anyone can post deceptive or staged content online. But Frank’s fans believe him and are eager to affirm his testimony.

Meanwhile, Frank increasingly seems to see his platform as an evangelistic one, referring to his followers as his “flock.” Over the past year, he’s progressively opened up about his personal faith in interviews, seemingly eager to share the gospel and his own story of transformation.

Frank is also adept at creating content that has a winsome air of authenticity. The collaborations that resulted from his injury seemed to take shape organically and spontaneously, giving fans the impression they were collectively watching the unfolding of something totally unscripted. Millions of followers watched the progression from The Figs’ initial musical send-up of Frank’s style to the eventual single and IRL performance. All of it was entertaining and feel-good.

Through a combination of catchy, uplifting music and an online presence that registers as authentic and unfiltered, Frank has managed to create a “halo” for himself. He talks about his artistic endeavors as a ministry; he tells fans that he makes decisions based on God’s direction.

This spiritual earnestness may very well be genuine. It also provides a defense from criticism, questions, and even satire. It’s a line of defense against naysayers, critics, and perceived haters.

In the aftermath of Frank’s injury, the artist posted videos in which he speaks vulnerably (and sometimes tearfully) about the experience and even calls out artists like Cory Asbury for creating related content that seemed to be mocking rather than offering good-natured support. Asbury then publicly apologized for his vasectomy parody. The two artists are now creating a collaborative single.

We are all—fans and skeptics alike—watching an artist try to navigate the line between public celebration of God’s work in his life and opportunistic self-marketing. This has always been the rub for Christian figures who say they have experienced the miraculous: They want to testify to God’s goodness and observable work in their lives, but the mere act of sharing it can invite accusations of fraud or grift.

He probably can’t walk that line perfectly, but Frank seems confident that “God’s got [his] back.”

Kelsey Kramer McGinnis is the worship correspondent for Christianity Today. Her book The Myth of Good Christian Parenting: How False Promises Betrayed a Generation of Evangelical Families, cowritten with Melissa Burt, will be released this October.

Inkwell

Have a Bit of Faith in the Media

New York Times journalist Nicholas Kristof discusses hope amid tragedy, the pursuit of justice, and advice for young writers.

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In the work of storytelling, we never know the power our words might have to shape the world. 

One morning in 1997, back when Bill and Melinda Gates were the dawning hope of a supposedly bright era of billionaire philanthropy, the couple was in bed reading The New York Times. They had been looking for ways to donate part of their considerable fortune, and on that day’s front page was a story titled “For Third World, Water Is Still A Deadly Drink,” about the millions of people suffering and dying around the world due to unsanitary water and diarrhea. 

The story jolted the couple into action, helping shape the direction of the Gates Foundation, which has now donated millions of dollars to the cause of water sanitation.

The byline on that story belonged to Nicholas Kristof, a Pulitzer Prize–winning foreign correspondent and a then-rising star at The Times. The issue of unclean water was only one of many humanitarian crises that Kristof has since covered in his far-flung, decades-long career.

He was there in 1989 when the tanks rolled into Tiananmen Square, eventually co-winning a Pulitzer with his wife, also a Times journalist, for their coverage of the massacre. He was on the ground when Sudan descended into genocide and when Congo was riven by civil war. He has covered malaria in Cambodia, famine in Yemen, and the plight of dying mothers in Cameroon. In total, Kristof, who grew up in rural Oregon, has reported from more than 100 countries.

He has many accolades—two Pulitzers, a Harvard degree, and a Rhodes scholarship. But what I admire most about Kristof is not only his courage in traveling to some of the world’s most perilous places but also his unwavering faith in the power of writing to bend the arc of the moral universe toward justice.

A case in point: His investigation into the dark corners of Pornhub, in which videos of child rape and other forms of sexual assault were rampant, prompted widespread outcry and led to major changes in the site.

“Inconsistently, imperfectly, we can manage to drive change,” Kristof told me. “It doesn’t work as well as we would like. It’s often frustrating. But can one have an impact? Absolutely. And I think there are, in fact, few professions where one can have so much impact.”

In a phone call with Inkwell, Kristof discussed his pursuit of justice, how he maintains hope despite witnessing many tragedies, and his advice for young writers. The interview has been edited for length and clarity.

How did you carve out a beat focused on humanitarian causes and the pursuit of justice?

I went into journalism because I wanted to find some kind of larger purpose. But in the first few years, I floundered a little bit. When I first joined The New York Times, I was covering business, exchange rates, and oil prices. It was hard to find moral purpose there. But in 1989, I covered the Tiananmen Square massacre, and when you see a modern army use weapons of war against peaceful pro-democracy protesters, that really changes you. That pushed me much more toward covering human rights issues for the rest of my career. It also led me to cover some gender issues, including violence.

Then in the 2000s, I would come back from covering these overseas humanitarian crises to find that my home community in rural Oregon was going through its own humanitarian crisis. And so I began to write more about issues like addiction and the struggles of the working class. My generation entered journalism after Watergate. So we saw it as a genuine public service.

It’s been really inspiring to read these stories of yours and to see the impact they have. Sometimes, when you’re starting out as a journalist, it can feel like you’re writing into a void and there’s not really a tangible change that happens.

Well, it tends to be unpredictable. The story that had more impact than any other was one I wrote about global health at the beginning of 1997. I never imagined it would have any particular impact, and then it just happened that Bill and Melinda Gates were looking for a cause to invest their philanthropy in, and that New York Times article caught their eye. That was just a complete fluke and totally unpredictable.

I think there’s a misperception that if we write about topics that are on the agenda, the ones people are already talking about, that’s where we have impact. But I think we have the greatest impact where we play the gatekeeper role, shining our spotlight on issues that are not getting attention, thereby propelling them onto the agenda—whether that’s kids dying of diarrhea or Pornhub or human trafficking.

What does faith mean to you today and throughout your journalism career?

My dad was a Catholic and my mom was a Presbyterian, bridging their own divide. When I was a kid, I was dragged to both Mass and the Presbyterian service, and that felt like an overdose to me. So I’m much more skeptical in my own world of faith now.

But I’ve also tended to think that in journalism we under cover religion. Evangelical Christianity is a huge driver of politics, of social behaviors, and of family dynamics in America. And somewhere in journalism, we’ve been more intellectually curious about the faith of people in Afghanistan than the faith of people in Missouri. There are many times when I tear my hair out at evangelical behaviors, but I think there’s also been plenty of completely misdirected scorn from my secular liberal world to the evangelical world in a way that’s misplaced and inappropriate.

Would you say it’s important that there are Christians in newsrooms?

It is true that newsrooms are often disproportionately liberal, especially in social ways. There is a certain antagonism toward people of faith and especially evangelicals, which is one of the last kinds of discrimination acceptable in liberal circles. But I’m a deep believer that news outlets do a better job when they have more diverse journalists.

In the 1960s, news organizations floundered at covering Black neighborhoods because they didn’t have many Black reporters. My encouragement to Christians who are interested in journalism is that you may face challenges, but we need you. You may have a narrative advantage because you can cover faith communities in ways that many of your colleagues will not be able to.

You’ve reported on some horrific things, like genocide, human trafficking, and sexual exploitation. How do you write about these dark things while also maintaining hope in God and faith in the dignity of human beings?

So my memoir was titled . It seemed a little bit of a contradiction that I’ve had this long career chasing terrible things and emerged talking about hope. Part of it is that, side by side with the worst of humanity, you invariably find the very best.

I remember I was once in eastern Congo, which had the most lethal conflict since World War II, in an area where warlords had been attacking and all the Western groups had fled. The only aid worker left was a Polish nun, and she was single-handedly running an orphanage, an emergency feeding center, and keeping the warlord at bay. I was just awed by her courage. I felt like I wanted to sign up and be a Polish nun.

During the Rwandan genocide, the only American who stayed in the capital was this Seventh-day Adventist who was ordered out by his church, but he refused to leave. Every day, he risked his life trying to get people through checkpoints. He could have been killed repeatedly, but somehow he survived. He was a hero to those who knew of it, including the many Rwandans he’d saved.

What advice do you have for our Inkwell readers who are young writers trying to hone their craft?

Read writing that you admire, and read it carefully. Read it with this view: How did that person manage to drag me through this story? How did they do that lede? Where do they put their quotes? How did they manage to write such a good piece? And then write a lot.

Christopher Kuo is a writer based in New York City. His work has been published in The New York TimesThe Los Angeles TimesDuke Magazine, and elsewhere. 

Church Life

Why an Early American Missionary Family Was Beloved in Lebanon

Over five decades of multigenerational ministry, the Eddys pioneered health and educational outreach.

William King Eddy

William King Eddy

Christianity Today September 4, 2025
Illustration by Christianity Today / Source Images: Courtesy of Nick Eddy

Pastor Michael Sbeit stood pensively in front of the marble gravestone in the evangelical cemetery of Sidon, a Lebanese city 25 miles south of Beirut. Mediterranean Cypress trees offered shade from the sweltering summer heat, while their fallen brown needles covered the ground and obscured the inscription engraved in both English and Arabic:

William King Eddy
Born March 13, 1854
Died Nov. 4, 1906
Served the Lord in Syria 28 years

Next to the grave of William King Eddy (hereafter “King”), is the grave of his wife, Elizabeth Nelson Eddy. Her tombstone honors her 49 years of service. Several feet away lies the body of their son, William “Bill” Alfred Eddy, who died in 1962.

The Eddys were an American family who originally came as Protestant missionaries to late 19th-century Lebanon, then part of the Syrian region of the Ottoman Empire. Several family members, including King’s sister Mary Pierson Eddy, and their father William Woodbridge Eddy (hereafter “Woodbridge”) are buried in Beirut.

“They were pioneers of our church,” said Sbeit, who leads the Presbyterian congregation the Eddys’ missionary colleagues founded in Sidon. “We don’t have many like them anymore.”

Two generations of Eddys shared the gospel, built schools, and offered healthcare. The last of their line in Lebanon left a more colorful legacy. William Alfred Eddy’s gravestone notes nothing about service to the Lord and instead displays his rank of colonel in the US Marine Corps.

“Bill loved this city,” said Sbeit. “But he was different.”

This two-part story chronicles the Eddy family’s multigenerational commitment to Lebanon. The family’s modern biographer is Muslim: Sheikh Muhammad Abu Zaid, president of the Sunni Sharia Law Court in Sidon. In Forgotten Pages from the Ancient History of Sidon, he expresses his deep appreciation for their foreign service.

“It is not how we look at the Eddys,” he said. “But how they looked at us.”

Abu Zaid’s sympathetic portrayal of Protestant missionaries contrasts with the more conflicted views that many Lebanese Muslims and Christians have held. Some view them as “sheep stealers” trying to convert the original Catholic, Orthodox, Sunni, Shiite, or Druze populations. Others see them as Western agents advancing America’s political agenda. Still others defend them, citing their years of devoted social service. The Eddys offer evidence each narrative could note.

The family’s story began when Chauncey Eddy, a Presbyterian pastor from New York joined the American Board of Commissioners for Foreign Missions in 1823. But when poor health impeded a potential missionary career, he prayed that God would call his children in his stead. His son Woodbridge and his daughter-in-law Hannah moved to the Levant in 1851, a year after the Ottoman sultan issued a decree to include the Protestant faith among the empire’s legally recognized sects.

The couple’s ministry started in Aleppo by learning Arabic before moving to the Lebanese mountain village of Kfarshima. In 1857, Woodbridge and Hannah moved south to Sidon, where they served in an evangelical church planted two years earlier. They replaced missionary Cornelius van Dyke, who left to complete a translation of Arabic Bible still cherished by many Middle Eastern Christians today.

Hannah and William Woodbridge EddyCourtesy of Nick Eddy
Hannah and William Woodbridge Eddy

Chauncey visited his son a year later, delighted at the fulfillment of his prayers. He even preached to the fledgling church, and Woodbridge translated his father’s sermon into Arabic. Over the next two decades, the young couple made their base in the city while continuing van Dyke’s preaching tours in nearby villages. Meanwhile, many of their missionary counterparts set up mission stations in the mountains, populated by Maronite Catholics and heterodox Druze Muslims.

Ottoman authorities neglected education in both urban and rural areas alike. Protestant missionaries prioritized learning not only so people could read the Bible but also to help “civilize” the people. Woodbridge contributed, working alongside local masons to build a school for girls in Sidon that Hannah later administered. 

In 1878, Woodbridge returned north to teach theology at the Syrian Protestant College (later, the secular American University in Beirut). By the end of his life, he had written a five-volume commentary in Arabic on the New Testament, which Lebanese Protestants continued to use well into the 20th century. He died in Beirut in 1900, mourned by missionary colleagues and the Arabic pastors he helped train. Hannah died four years later, proud to see three of her five children continue in mission work.

When the Eddy family first came to the region, the feudal society suffered from complex religious rivalries and chaotic colonial interests. As the Ottoman Empire declined, England and France vied for influence among the different sects, which increased the tensions between them.

While many Muslims were unhappy with the colonial powers, they felt neutrally or even positively towards America, which did not play an active political role in the region at that time. Nevertheless, local conflict could still affect mission work. In 1860, for instance, a war between Druze and Christians killed several Catholic missionaries and displaced many American Protestants from their preaching stations.

The schools and medical care that the Eddys and their colleagues offered helped build local relationships. Many missionaries focused their outreach on Muslims and Jews, but as Catholic and Orthodox Christians often profited from their services, church leaders bristled when their members joined Protestant congregations.

Woodbridge’s daughter Mary Pierson Eddy confronted these tensions as a missionary doctor. Born in Sidon and raised in Beirut, at age 22 she suffered a severe fever and nearly died. After she recovered, the experience inspired her to pursue medicine, and she moved to the US to study for several years.

Courtesy of Nick Eddy
Mary Pierson Eddy

In 1892, Mary traveled to Istanbul, the capital of the Ottoman Empire, and began learning Turkish. The medical committee was confused to see an American woman with perfect Arabic. For the next six hours, she answered their questions and eventually obtained her medical license. 

“I am one of you,” Mary told the committee. “I grew up among you.”

After passing the examination, Mary became the first female doctor in Ottoman realms. She spent the next 20 years traveling from Beirut to various villages to treat patients, and in 1904, she opened a center for tuberculosis. Local Maronite clergy grew frustrated at the Protestant presence and eventually compelled her to leave their mountain areas, counseling Christians to avoid her clinics. Mary could not help but notice that sick priests suffering from lung disease still came to her for treatment.

Over time, the physical toll of Mary’s travel threatened her eyesight and ability to walk. In 1916, she went to America seeking care and rest. But as her situation worsened, Mary moved back to Lebanon. She died one year later in Beirut and is buried in the city’s evangelical cemetery.

Mary’s brother William King shared a similar attachment to this part of the world. After graduating from Princeton University in 1875, he took over his father’s ministry in Sidon at age 24 and preached widely in the villages outside of the city. But he also responded to local injustice—brokering land sales in local villages for tenant farmers to free themselves from feudal control.

While his mother Hannah and later his sister Harriet administered the girls’ school, King added a boys’ wing in 1881. Today, the co-ed National Evangelical Institute for Girls and Boys is one of the top schools in Sidon. Missionaries later remarked that their educational efforts brought two schools to every village—their own and the one that Catholics, Orthodox, or Muslims built soon after.

“The Eddys had a vision,” said Sbeit. “Missionaries helped us change.”

In 1906, King was preparing to preach in Alma, a village in northern Palestine, when he felt chest pains. At age 52, missionary colleagues considered him one of the strongest on the team. But now sensing his death, he instructed his Bedouin assistant, who had become a Christian, to secure transportation that could return his body back to Sidon.

After King died, a boat carried his corpse by boat to Tyre. When a storm struck, his friends took the body the rest of the 20-mile journey to Sidon by land. The following day, Muslim, Christian, and Jewish leaders across Lebanon attended a service at the evangelical church. Local shops closed in his honor, lining Sidon’s alleyways for the funeral procession.

Abu Zaid used King’s final words as the opening quote of his book: “Put my body in a coffin and then take me to Sidon. I wish to be buried over there, among the people of which I belong.”

King’s wife Elizabeth returned to America with their two younger children. Both were with their father on that fateful trip and read Psalm 23 to him before he died. After they reached adulthood, Elizabeth returned to Lebanon, passing away in 1931. She was buried beside her husband in Sidon, and her tombstone notes 49 years of service to the Lord.

The younger child, William “Bill” Alfred Eddy, was 10 years old when he watched his father die. He eventually took a path of his own, and his story will be told next in part two.

Culture

Are Christians Hotter?

The social media “Jesus glow” trend is just another kind of prosperity gospel.

Glowing makeup brushes and lipstick.
Christianity Today September 4, 2025
Illustration by Elizabeth Kaye / Source Images: Pexels

Some Christian women on the internet seem convinced that Jesus wants them to be holy—and hot.

If you search “Jesus glow-up” on Instagram or TikTok, the first video to show up will likely follow a template. First, there’s a variation on the words “The Jesus glow isn’t real” (a statement the content creator aims to debunk) overlaid on a series of photos or videos showing the users in their “pre-glow-up days”—that is, before they committed their lives to Christ. Then there are the “after” images, meant to provide evidence that their newfound devotion has noticeable physical effects. Often the videos are set to a mash-up of an Olivia Rodrigo song, either “deja vu” or “traitor.”

One influencer posted a “before” video of herself wearing club clothes, a spiked collar, and dramatic makeup. After, she poses and twirls for the camera in long, flowy dresses and skirts. (Her TikTok has over 1 million likes.) Another user shared pictures of her heavily made-up face and collection of crystals. After, she’s wearing a cross necklace and reading the King James Bible.

Christian influencer Hailey Serrano (who goes by Hailey Julia on social media) posted four “before” pictures of herself smirking at the camera. A transition slide with a cross emoji precedes five “after” images of Serrano smiling in noticeably better lighting and softer makeup.

“I can confirm that the Jesus glow is, in fact, real,” Serrano wrote in the caption.

Some internet personalities are even sharing advice to guide others on their glow-up journeys. Christian influencer and cookbook author Ashley Hetherington posted a list of “Christian glow up tips,” including run-of-the-mill spiritual advice like “Bible before phone,” “join a church,” and “memorize scripture” alongside wellness tips like “whole foods,” “move body,” and “dress in fine linens.”

It’s easy to dismiss this trend as unserious. Perhaps in a vacuum it’s harmless. But the “Jesus glow-up” is also a symptom of something endemic and pernicious. Eagerness to claim the blessing of heightened physical beauty, bestowed from on high, is just another indication of our appearance-obsessed worldview.

These days, women can’t scroll social media without running into Ozempic mentions, #SkinnyTok, and an endless cascade of advertisements for beauty products. In this context, claiming Jesus wants to make his followers prettier is just putting a spiritual spin on the message the secular world is already sending.

I don’t necessarily doubt the sincerity of the content creators sharing these images. Some of them refer to their glow-ups as an inside-out process of internal sanctification appearing physically as some undefinable, magnetic quality. “It’s in the eyes,” commenters say, insisting they can detect a change in countenance that’s about more than aesthetics.

But on social media, a share-worthy glow-up has to be visual, and the photographic lexicon of platforms like Instagram doesn’t showcase the spiritual. It can’t differentiate between normative physical attractiveness and some deeper, virtuous, more transcendent type of beauty.

Many Jesus-glow posts use “before” pictures in which the user is wearing a lot of heavy makeup; the “after” images show a more on-trend, “clean girl” look. The unspoken subtext: “Followers of Jesus don’t look like that; they look like this.” (Some Christian influencers in alternative fashion and art scenes have pointed out that faithful believers can also look as if they are on their way to a metal show.)

At the same time, creators participating in this trend seem to be earnestly celebrating something every Christian hopes for: that the work of the Holy Spirit will transform them and bear fruit, including joy, peace, and goodness. These are certainly qualities that can change one’s life in meaningful, even embodied ways. In some cases, the advertised glow-up seems to be most directly attributed to lifestyle changes; users post “before” pictures of themselves partying, drinking, or smoking and say they’ve left behind the makeup and clothing they wore to participate in their former social worlds. Perhaps a perceived improvement in physical appearance has to do with a decrease in substance use. 

But it’s risky to offer up evidence of those physical changes to be judged by the rules of social media—especially Instagram, a platform that consistently pairs with decreased self-esteem and body image in young women.

More than anything, the Jesus-glow-up trend is a failure of imagination. Just as evangelists for the prosperity gospel can’t imagine a clearer sign of blessing than financial wealth, those who claim Jesus wants us to have a glow-up can’t imagine a clearer sign of blessing than physical attractiveness. It’s the result of our contented acceptance of the constantly shifting, often-oppressive beauty standards determined by entertainment media, male desire, capitalism, entrenched racism, and ableism.

For centuries, people have categorized and described the bodies of female followers of Christ in ways that tie the physical form to spiritual goodness. During the medieval period, hagiographies of female figures like Saint Agatha foreground the female body in grotesque, disturbing ways, describing horrifying torture scenes. According to historian Kirsten Wolf, narrators generally imbued these exemplary female followers of Christ with “irresistible beauty,” as well as virginity, an aristocratic background, and unshakeable faith.

Describing female saints in this way was what Wolf refers to as a “simplification” process: a means of making a character easily legible to a mostly illiterate audience that would be hearing the story orally. A beautiful, socially respectable virgin was sympathetic, valuable, and desirable. She was a type that persisted. Kristin Kobes Du Mez has written about the early 20th-century child evangelist Uldine Utley, whose “angelic” appearance gave her the power of perceived innocence.

Writers and artists have long endowed virtuous female characters with normative physical beauty, symbolizing that appearances aren’t skin-deep. Examples abound—from Lucie in Charles Dickens’s A Tale of Two Cities to the heroine of Disney’s Cinderella, whose beauty contrasts with the cartoonish flaws of her cruel “ugly stepsisters.”

Too often, Christians have tacitly adopted this value system. Rather than working to create a radically liberatory alternative, they’ve shackled women to beauty standards with spiritual language.

Take John Eldredge’s best-selling book, Wild at Heart: Discovering the Secret of a Man’s Soul, and its counterpart for women, Captivating: Unveiling the Mystery of a Woman’s Soul (coauthored with Eldredge’s wife, Stasi). In this vision of a fulfilling Christian life, men want to “win the beauty,” and women long “to unveil beauty.”

The Eldredges would certainly say the beauty they refer to is an inner radiance, not tied to the ever-shifting standards of the media. But when so many examples of the masculine quest for fulfillment in Wild at Heart are epic Hollywood films (in which the attractiveness of the people onscreen is part of an entertaining fantasy), one wonders what kind of grace these books are lauding. A few nods to inner beauty don’t cancel out the emphasis on desirability.

American Christian women have received a baffling collection of messages about our bodies and their value. Those who encountered Gwen Shamblin Lara’s Weigh Down program heard God wants you to be thin. Millennials who grew up on contemporary Christian music owned CDs with covers featuring slender, mostly white, pretty women; they may have read Brio magazine, which in its November 1998 issue ran an article addressing girls in the throes of puberty:

Some of your least favorite qualities are often only temporary. Perhaps your most picked-on will become your most prized possessions. It happened for me as my formerly skinny legs and knobby knees won me the preliminary swimsuit competition and a college scholarship in the Miss Oklahoma Pageant.

Today, provocateurs and Christian manosphere influencers claim Christian women are just prettier. A glut of social media content emphasizes the value of physical upkeep and fitness for believers, almost always accepting current standards as the ones faithful women should be trying to meet. Influencers connect spiritual health to weight loss and performance ability and post about 21-day water fasts to “get closer to God” while reaching fitness goals.

Not all American Christian women are political conservatives, and vice versa. But Christian women who consume right-leaning media also encounter products like Evie magazine and the “Real Women of America” calendar, both examples of attempts to prove that women on the conservative “team” are hotter.

In a way, participants in the Jesus-glow-up trend are competing in the same arms race. Whichever side has the most beautiful people must be doing something right, right? 

Christians eager to claim that women who follow their faith are more desirable are attempting a form of evangelism that turns people into showpieces, luring curious seekers with the promise of better looks. And because good looks are social currency, this has a lot in common with the prosperity gospel.

If the Christian faith is built on the life and death of one who “had no beauty or majesty to attract us to him” (Isa. 53:2) and it envisions a kingdom that upends our world’s power structures, followers of Christ should have a radically different way of looking at female bodies.

We should be able to name the harm we cause when we equate normative beauty with goodness, and we should seek to divest ourselves of a system that uses the bodies and faces of human beings to create social and political hierarchies. The glow-up prosperity gospel just keeps us competing in a perpetual beauty pageant that ultimately hurts both its winners and its losers.

Kelsey Kramer McGinnis is the worship correspondent for Christianity Today. Her book The Myth of Good Christian Parenting: How False Promises Betrayed a Generation of Evangelical Families, cowritten with Melissa Burt, will be released this October.

Ideas

Can the Tech Bros Save the World?

Silicon Valley’s leaders are trying to heal society’s ills. Christians can show a better way.

Elon Musk, Peter Thiel, and Mark Zuckerberg in a globe
Christianity Today September 4, 2025
Illustration by Mallory Rentsch Tlapek / Source Images: Wikimedia Commons, Getty

Much has been made of the daunting challenges of our times—from the global economy to artificial intelligence—with leaders from the left, right, and center all discussing how to overcome them. The people who aim to fix these supposed crises: tech-bro engineers in Silicon Valley.

Tech leaders such as Peter Thiel, Elon Musk, former Google executive Larry Page, and OpenAI’s Sam Altman have decided how they are going to handle global challenges. But are they offering the best solutions?

One recent example: The left-leaning techno-optimistic worldview from Ezra Klein and Derek Thompson in their book Abundance envisions a future where technology can fix problems of plummeting biodiversity and food scarcity, on the condition that we deregulate as much as possible and let the engineers fix the planet.

Klein and Thompson claim progressive governments are harming our progress by overregulation. They lament losing Silicon Valley engineers, such as Peter Thiel and Elon Musk, to right-wing politicians.

Many engineers see the world through that same lens: There are structural problems in our society, such as bad traffic and food shortages, and we can fix them with mere technological solutions. Musk, for example, founded his electric-car company Tesla to accelerate humanity into a sustainable economy, but is now focused on exploring Mars and addressing the population decline.

But what these technical solutions don’t address is humanity’s empty hedonism and our global economy’s dependence on Western culture’s extravagant consumerism.

Other leaders from Silicon Valley recognize that people are the problem and humanity is broken. We need food for our bodies, and our bodies are frail and need care and attention. Their solution: What if we could have superhuman bodies that transcend our limitations as humans?

Google cofounder Larry Page and Elon Musk have clashed on this issue in the past, as Page is a proponent of transhumanism and believes there are too many humans, whereas Musk is not a transhumanist. Page has labeled Musk a “speciest” in the past, where Musk allegedly replied that, yes, he was “pro-human.”

Peter Thiel, cofounder of PayPal and Palantir Technologies, lamented the limits of our bodies on a podcast with The New York Times’s Ross Douthat. Christians especially should strive to overcome these limits in transhumanistic ways, Thiel said. Are our souls not more important? Should we not strive to make a better embodiment, as we will eventually get new bodies? 

Musk has repeatedly spoken on the matter of eternal life through an uploaded personal consciousness. It would not be for him, he says. He wants peace of mind when he dies, he has said, no consciousness—just the “sweet release of death.” But with his invention of Neuralink, the brain-machine-interface chips in human volunteers, Musk draws a fine line with a techno-optimistic view.

Musk also sees space exploration as a way to save humanity. Tesla and Neuralink are meant to prolong life on earth, but SpaceX is meant for expanding life to other planets. Mars colonization, as Musk sees it, would not be to escape earth but to reduce the risk of our civilization being wiped out by a mass event such as an asteroid or virus. It would not mean a utopia for the rich but a difficult place to live for adventurous people who could form the first step in becoming multiplanetary as a species.

Finally, in addition to fixing climate and human frailty, some engineers and economists would prioritize a technological fix to our governing bodies, which they see as slow moving, overregulated, and too “woke.” We should move beyond democracy, some like blogger-turned-philosopher Curtis Yarvin argue, and forcibly toward an autocratic technocracy, where engineers and economists in liaison with artificial intelligence would make decisions for the good of the people.

But some of the biggest tech bros—Musk, Altman, and Meta’s Mark Zuckerberg—want to keep democracy alive in its current form and increasingly want to keep freedom of speech less restricted and censored. Musk favors a direct democracy on Mars, where inhabitants would vote for policies, instead of a two-tier system.

Others, like Alexander Karp and Nicholas Zamiska, two leaders from Palantir, would like to dismantle the old order that was too focused on simply building an individual-consumer state with no ideals. They see the future of the West as a technological republic, where there would be less bureaucracy and more “freedom to build, ownership of … success, and a commitment above all to results.” Instead of creating the next social app, engineers would build technologies to stop other governments from overrunning Western countries.

While a tech future in AI, democracy, and environmental solutions might sound exciting to some and uncompelling to others, Christians have always had a nuanced and hopeful response to the world’s greatest difficulties. First, Christians can encourage a holistic perspective, and that applies to AI and the preservation of democracy. Tech leaders or engineers often see the world through the lens of their hammers and software programs, and it is easy to condemn them for their reductionist view of the world and its problems.

But an overspiritual view of the challenges of this world has the same problem; seeing our world only through the lens of morality (“Poor families are broken because of divorce” or “We should just consume less, and the food shortage problem would be solved”) is reductionistic as well.

A Christian worldview could help us understand the problems of our times by seeing any challenge more holistically. Dutch philosopher Herman Dooyeweerd argues there are 15 or more different aspects of being in any phenomenon. We should look at a thing not only technically and physically (how many there are, how it moves, where it is located, how it reacts in its environment) but also psychologically, legally, morally, religiously, and so on through other perspectives.

We need this holistic worldview, where the solutions of the engineer, the legal and communal ideas of a politician, and the moral virtues of all bring change for good. We should also be wary to fight our transhumanistic tendencies, not just the obvious ones from Page or Thiel (an overspiritual view of our bodies, discarding their need for safety). We have a faith that upholds the human body and has the bodily resurrection as core belief, and we have a hope that says our bodies do count for us.

Second, Christians should not be afraid to advocate for democratic values and democracy, which are founded on Christian principles of fairness, justice, and a belief that no human being (including lawmakers) is above the law. The Great Commission to go and tell the Good News as Christians and churches is compatible with the great good of advocating the freedom of religion for all, as the Good News cannot and should not be forced upon anyone since the Spirit of the Lord works without force (Zech. 4:6). Good regulations from our Christian tradition are worth arguing for in a democracy—and worth implementing—but limited to the rules of democracy and the freedom of conscience and speech.

Third, we can counter the perspectives of Silicon Valley with a sound view on ethics. The recent techno-optimistic view—that if we were to prolong AI, we would find right and wrong through computation and reasoning alone—sounds promising. Is an impartial, reasoning, computer-engineered morality what we need in our time? “Up until modern times, if you were stronger, you were right. Now, we’ve flipped it to if you’re weaker, you’re right,” Musk has said. “But neither is true. … You have to look at morals in the absolute.”

A Christian view on ethics also has impartiality at its core: “Do not pervert justice; do not show partiality to the poor or favoritism to the great, but judge your neighbor fairly” (Lev. 19:15). Our Scriptures have many verses on how we should view our poor neighbors, how we should take care of them and do them justice, but that does not mean we should favor them in court or see them as more moral than others.

We should take into account all voices, but we often forget the poor—that is why Scripture often stresses that God sees the poor when others do not. To walk humbly in the way of the Lord and to do justice (Mic. 6:8), we need to learn God’s wisdom. We can’t download spiritual discernment into our brains; we need practice to gain it. We need to lift weights ourselves in the gym to gain muscle; we cannot delegate the weightlifting to a forklift. The same applies to AI and ethics: We need to lift our spiritual weights ourselves to gain wisdom, insight, and virtues.

As we unlearn our addictions to our screens, whether we’re bingeing, streaming, or doomscrolling the news on traditional or social media, we must turn our attention to how we want to shape our world, recovering it and restoring it to the glory creation is showing to its Creator.

We are not simply shaped by our time of artificial intelligence and techno-optimism. We are also active agents in the world, called to create good technology, beautiful art, restorative education, and just policies. It is important to acknowledge our own and others’ moral failings in designing and executing culture and technology in our economy and democracies.

Christians, especially those in tech and engineering, can help shape a better world that points to the kingdom to come, where justice reigns and where technology is meant to restore rather than destroy.

Maaike E. Harmsen is a Reformed theologian, ethicist, writer, and PhD candidate in the Netherlands.

News

Died: Appalachian Trail Legend Gene Espy

He wanted to see God’s work in nature, so he walked from Georgia to Maine, becoming the second person to complete the trek.

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Gene Espy wasn’t trying to set a record. He went into the woods in May 1951 to connect with God. 

Then he walked for 123 days. One foot in front of the other, the 24-year-old Baptist from Georgia kept going for more than 2,000 miles, north through 14 states, wearing out three pairs of boots and growing a beard so long it scared people. He emerged on a mountaintop in Maine at the end of September, the second person ever to hike the complete length of the Appalachian Trail (AT).

“It was a beautiful day … and the scenery was spectacular in all directions,” he recalled decades later. “I knelt down and said a prayer of thanks to God for watching over me and allowing me to make the hike.”

Espy, who was among the first people inducted into the Appalachian Trail Hall of Fame in 2011, died on August 22 at the age of 98. 

Although he was never famous to the general public, Espy became an inspiration to many of the more than 3,000 people who attempt to “thru-hike” the AT every year. Serious hikers and trail devotees see him as a legend. They often sought him out for advice over the years and jumped at opportunities to take a photo with him or just shake his hand. 

“Only the second person to do the whole thing at once … ever. No big deal,” one wrote on Instagram. Another called Espy one of the AT’s “founding fathers” and said, “He helped to make the unthinkable thinkable” when he blazed his way through the mountains in 1951. “Thank you, Gene.”

Espy’s hiking gear—including a boot, his socks, and a walking stick he carved as a 12-year-old Boy Scout—are on display at Amicalola Falls State Park, near where the AT begins.

He said he hoped the relics from his trek would “represent the journeys of many—pilgrimages not only into the physical wilderness but into the depths of our souls.”

Eugene Marion Espy was born on April 14, 1927, in Cordele, Georgia, the second of Iona Peterson Espy and Alto Lee Espy’s two sons. His mother was a music teacher. His father was a businessman who ran a cotton-processing plant and warehouse. The family were faithful members of First Baptist Church Cordele. 

Espy was also an avid Boy Scout and earned the highest rank, Eagle Scout, in 1943. When he wasn’t pursuing merit badges, he went on his own epic adventures. Espy explored caves throughout the Southeast, rode a motorcycle up Stone Mountain, and sailed 300 miles by himself down the Ocmulgee River, according to his family.

Once he taught himself to water-ski. In a 2010 interview, Espy recalled it wasn’t too hard to figure out, with a little help from Popular Science magazine. The challenge was all the tree stumps just below the surface of the freshly dammed lake. Before he could try to ski, he had to dive to the base of each stump, attach a stick of dynamite, get out of the water, and light a long fuse to blow them up, to create a clear stretch of water.

He first heard of the AT in 1939, when his seventh-grade teacher told his class about the trail that had been completed just two years before. At the time, Espy had never seen mountains, but the idea of trekking through the wilderness captured his imagination. 

“I thought, ‘If I ever get the chance, I’d like to hike the whole trail,’” he said.

Espy interrupted his college education to serve in World War II. When he returned from the US Navy, he enrolled in the Georgia Institute of Technology, where he studied industrial management. He graduated in 1950 and got a job in sales. He didn’t like it, though, and decided to go for a walk. 

“I had one goal—to see God in nature,” Espy said

He started from Mount Oglethorpe, Georgia, on May 31. He carried 45 to 50 pounds of stuff on his back: a tent, sleeping bag, inflatable pillow, collapsible cup, rope, hatchet, .25-caliber pistol, poncho, extra shirt, extra pair of socks, notebook, pencil, camera, and New Testament. He kept a map in his hat, where it would stay dry.

Espy shipped replacement boots ahead of himself to post offices along the trail and replenished his food supply—mostly cornmeal mush, raisins, pudding, peanut-butter-and-jelly sandwiches, and chocolate bars—as he went.

He averaged a bit more than 16 miles per day, though sometimes he had to hack his way through overgrown brush, and he frequently wandered off to look at interesting things. The photos he took on the trip show a vast, vibrant wilderness with only few distant signs of human life. 

“There would be weeks at a time when I didn’t see anyone on the trail,” Espy said. “I saw a lot of wildlife, though.”

He stopped counting rattlesnakes after he killed 15. One night he slept 50 feet up in a fire tower to stay out of reach of wildcats he could hear in the dark. He also saw birds, bears, deer, and raccoons.

“I never really got lonely,” Espy said. “I read my Bible.”

When he did see people on the trail, the encounters were sometimes strange. 

In Damascus, Virginia, a police officer welcomed him to down and insisted he spent the night at “headquarters,” which turned out to mean the jail. Sixty miles later, in Galax, people reported being frightened by his long beard. Another time, a man accused him being a Communist and told to keep moving, or he’d regret it.

Espy learned from a dairy farmer on the way that if he made it to Maine, he would be the second person ever to hike the whole trail. A Pennsylvania man named Earl Shaffer had done it three years before. 

“I was surprised that nobody else had hiked the entire trail,” Espy said. “After that, I found a couple of index cards that Earl left in shelters along the way. He wrote notes on them and stuffed them in cracks between logs.”

Espy said he didn’t consider quitting until the very end, when a strong wind blew him over several times in Maine. But he kept going and reached the 100-Mile Wilderness at the end of the AT in September. He spent the final night in the home of a state park ranger before climbing Mount Katahdin, the northern terminus of the trail.

Then he caught a bus home to Georgia. He got married to Eugenia Bass; moved to Macon, Georgia; had two daughters; and went to work as an aeronautic engineer at Robins Air Force Base. 

The family joined Highland Hills Baptist Church, a Southern Baptist and then Cooperative Baptist congregation. His family recalls him as a devoted Christian and someone who loved his wife so much he’d wake her up in the middle of the night to tell her. 

He happily gave advice to hikers over the years, telling them what they should pack, how to prepare, and what to expect. He continued to hike sections of the trail in later years and talked about “getting out into the woods” while he was in the hospital a few days before he died.

“I got what I intended out of the Appalachian Trail,” he once said. “I got to see God’s work in nature.”

Espy is survived by his wife, Eugenia, and daughters Ellen Holliday and Jane Gilsinger. A memorial service will be held at Highland Hills Baptist Church in Macon, Georgia, on September 6.

Church Life

How Can I Help? Ask the Church.

After a disaster like Hurricane Helene, volunteers and donations need systems—and that’s where local congregations come in.

The aftermath of Helene

Illustration by Mark Harris

The church doesn’t always feel like my home, but on Saturday, September 28, 2024, it did.

My first hint that a storm was coming was the morning before. I had planned a trip to Waffle House with friends—hash browns, over-medium eggs, and coffee. But I was worried about the forecast, which predicted high winds, so we canceled. I still went to work. But after the power in the office went out—my second hint—my coworkers and I decided it was a good time to leave.

By Saturday, I was worried. I was safe in my Johnson City, Tennessee, apartment but was starting to understand the extent of the damage Hurricane Helene was causing across the region. I heard about the destroyed Unicoi County Hospital, where a helicopter saved patients and nurses from the roof. I heard of people gone missing whose bodies wouldn’t be found for more than a month.

I texted a former professor who pastors a church in Unicoi County, a 15-minute drive from me. Its members were safe, but the community was torn up—a factory crushed by the river, uprooted trees strewn like driftwood across the interstate, another church with pews buried in mud. My professor was wondering how his congregation could help.

All over the country, in the aftermath of fires and mudslides and tornadoes and horrible floods like those that slammed the Texas Hill Country this summer, more and more pastors are coming to grips with the reality of long-haul recovery. According to the National Centers for Environmental Information, the United States faced five separate billion-dollar disaster events in 2000. In 2024, it faced 27. Hurricane Helene was one of them, a Category 4 hurricane with heavy rains and 140-mph winds that killed 250 people.

Throughout the storm, my wife and I were safe. We had what we needed. But I knew there were countless other people who did not. I sat on my couch, worried and powerless.

September 28 opened up an ache that turned into a question: How does help get to the people who need it?


That Saturday, Sue Ford clocked out from her job in Elizabethton, Tennessee, for the last time. The Doe River was overflowing its banks, both in Elizabethton and in nearby Hampton, where she lived. Her boss at the nursing home said Ford couldn’t leave to check on her chihuahuas. So she quit.

The dogs were safe, but a nearby neighborhood was flooded. So Ford picked up a heavy-duty rope from Brown’s Hardware & Grocery and fired up the skid-steer loader she and her husband used for their side hustle pavement business. Edging alongside houses, she tied the rope to porches and guided stranded people through the floodwaters to the skid-steer’s bucket. Ford saved ten people, two dogs, and a cat.

Next on the list was a drive up the nearby Roan Mountain to check on friends and family who didn’t have cell service, Wi-Fi, clean water, or heat. The bridges had washed out; they were stuck in their houses. Ford wasn’t surprised: “Honey, when it comes down that Doe, there ain’t nothing gonna stand in its way.”

Fortunately, Sue Ford knows how to get places—specifically, she knows the creases in Roan Mountain after living in the area for 49 years. For weeks after the storm, she piled food, water, and kerosene onto a utility vehicle and weaved through fallen trees to Tiger Creek. If someone needed a hospital visit, Ford and the dogs gave them a ride.

But eventually, she started running out of resources. She hoped that the Bristol Motor Speedway—the racetrack turned into a donation hub—might supply some food. When she drove 40 minutes there to check, she discovered the venue was distributing items to registered nonprofits only.

That made sense, but it was still frustrating. Ford knew who had needs. But she couldn’t get the supplies. Another thing about Sue Ford: She’s not one to quit easily. She headed back to Elizabethton, to the faith-based nonprofit Assistance and Resource Ministries (ARM). There she met director Michelle Kitchens, the woman in charge of coordinating volunteers and organizing donations who also checks in on about 200 homeless clients, keeps records, and folds clothes in a pile on her desk. Ford needed Kitchens’s help with securing a nonprofit designation; Kitchens knew which documents needed to be submitted.

Before long, Ford and a crew of volunteers on side-by-sides and four-wheelers were storing Speedway-provided supplies in Hampton and then driving them to Tiger Creek. On Thanksgiving Day, they delivered turkeys.

By March, when Ford and Kitchens drove me around Carter County, things were quieter. Ford pointed out trickling creeks that had erupted into rivers, assuring me we wouldn’t get lost. “And if you get lost, find a possum,” she said, “because it always finds a road.”

In the afternoon, we visited Ford’s aunt, who’d received a generator from ARM. It had been six months since the flood, but Kitchens still asked if she needed anything. Three hours later, the women were headed back up to Roan Mountain with dog pads, Coke, and two propane tanks.

It takes years of membership in a community to learn how to take care of people like Ford did. But it also takes local organizations, churches, and nonprofits to connect resources with knowledge. It takes a speedway warehousing boxes of cereal and someone who can jump through bureaucratic hoops.

Personal knowledge, organizational resources, trust: The convergence of these is what gets food up to an aunt in the woods.


On September 30—the Monday just after the storm—I accompanied a friend to an emergency response center. When we arrived, lots of volunteers were already there. The people at the check-in table told me I could add my name to the sign-in sheet, and they’d call if they needed more help.

The sheet asked about skills or resources; I had studied English and humanities in college and then worked for an arts center. I don’t remember what I wrote, but I knew they weren’t going to call me. I waited in the emergency center in case anybody needed the two hands of a 23-year-old. They didn’t. There was that feeling again: wanting to help but not knowing how.

Ford had known. Kitchens had known. Marsha Van Rijssen and Jill Rhinehart knew too.

Across the mountain range in Asheville, North Carolina, Van Rijssen helps with the weekly meals at Groce United Methodist Church. When Hurricane Helene knocked the power out, her mind went to the food in the freezer. She knew it would spoil soon. So she drove to the church and knocked on the parsonage door.

“I knew the kitchen there,” Van Rijssen said. “I know where everything’s at…. And it just began.”

Van Rijssen and her children, along with Rhinehart, the pastor, got to work. They put up a sign on the street corner. They set up a buffet table under the breezeway and more tables in the parking lot. The first day they served around 200 meals. By the second day it was 500. Van Rijssen invited a bunch of local teenagers to help.

And the food was abundant. Every year, Groce UMC partners with a local farm for a pumpkin sale; that farm supplied fresh produce. Downtown businesses donated food from powerless freezers—Brazilian cuisine, steaks, pies. A chef showed up and started cooking for free.

In her weeks serving meals, Rhinehart noticed guests walking around, dazed. One man in his early 30s didn’t know she was the reverend but wanted to tell her what the lunches had meant to him. “If I can just get to two o’clock, I can go over there and eat and I can be okay,” she remembers the man saying.

My favorite part of the Groce UMC story is the teenagers. I’m guessing they weren’t particularly skilled at baking casseroles, but they could scoop food with a spatula. I felt a lot closer to them than the adults. Each day, those teenagers served food to hundreds of people, because they had the church.


That first week after Helene hit, I kept my ears perked for ways to help. There were email lists to join, social media accounts to follow, and news stories to read. But it was genuinely difficult to discern which places would benefit from the help of a random 23-year-old with no relevant skills.

The leads I followed came from my church. The chair of our benevolence committee sent an email detailing places that needed help—the church camp where the youth group goes each summer, a flooded church in Erwin, First Baptist Church Roan Mountain.

When I arrived at First Baptist, the building was full of donations—water bottles in the driveway, cleaning supplies in the side hallway. First Baptist members piled chainsaws onto ATVs so they could clear the roads.

I’ve used a chainsaw before, but not enough for them to hand me one after a hurricane. No one wants me cooking. Once again, I approached the check-in table. In this case, the pastor’s mother-in-law was kind. She gave me a job carrying boxes to cars.

While loading supplies into trunks, I finally understood one of the most important things a church provides after disaster: a system. I offered no expertise, but I could slot into a role, step into the flow of donations and volunteers, and become one of many who were serving as the hands and feet of Jesus.

In Reorganized Religion, religion reporter Bob Smietana detailed how churches and denominations have been crucial to disaster response in the US. “The whole system was a well-oiled machine,” he reported of Hillcrest Baptist Church near Savannah, Georgia, which operated as a relief headquarters after Hurricane Sally.

A few days after my trip to First Baptist, I joined my church’s youth group at ARM—where Kitchens is the director—to organize clothes. Every Wednesday and Thursday for years, people in need have come to ARM to pick up mac and cheese for kids and camping meals they can cook outside or to look through clean clothes. After the hurricane, being nice and hardworking wasn’t enough to effectively distribute supplies. Kitchens and her team had been getting good at service for 27 years, as well as getting a network of area churches like mine accustomed to donating and volunteering.

The aftermath of HeleneIllustration by Mark Harris

“Most people in our community will trust one of our churches far more than they will trust any kind of organization or any kind of government agency,” said Quana Roberts, who coordinated post-Helene home repair projects out of Harmony Free Will Baptist Church in Hampton, Tennessee. Volunteer crews came from across the country and slept in Harmony’s fellowship hall; Roberts sent them to muck out mud and put up drywall. Harmony had a plumber and electrician in its pews who were willing to work on weekends. Months later, the church was tackling its third full community rebuild project. All the logistics went through Roberts’s phone.

For 17 years before the storm, Harmony had served its neighbors through an annual Back to School Bash, giving away 1,500 fully stocked backpacks in an event more like a carnival than a trip to Walmart. “You get the bounce house. You get to go pet the goats, and everything’s free,” Roberts said. Families came to the church for the bounce house. When it came time to ask for help after a hurricane, they knew who to call.

“There is no organization more responsible in Northeast Tennessee for the [post-Helene] recovery that has happened than churches,” said Brad Parker, then director of disaster recovery for Eastern Eight, a nonprofit that focuses on housing in East Tennessee.

Denominational ministries like Tennessee Baptist Disaster Relief, Mennonite Disaster Service, and Lutheran World Relief have sent out volunteers for years; on a congregational level, members have learned to work together. They know what’s expected of them—this is what their churches do.

Amy Phillips, the Western North Carolina response coordinator for Lutheran Disaster Response Carolinas, confirmed that many Lutheran congregations do regular service projects with Habitat for Humanity. Some congregations will go on two to three disaster trips a year. “So it’s pretty common,” she said, “for that construction piece to be kind of second nature to how they serve in the community.”

In those first days after Helene, I witnessed the encouraging reality that lots of people want to help after a disaster. It takes a local organization, though, to turn that desire into action, into hot food and repaired roofs. The studs of these systems—the weekly volunteer commitments, the storage facilities, and the phone number lists—are put in place long before disaster strikes. “For decades,” Smietana wrote, “the federal government’s disaster relief strategy has been built around the assumption that trained volunteers from faith-based groups will be among the first on the ground when disaster strikes.”

But that assumption may not hold. The number of people leaving organized religion has been rising for decades; my generation, Gen Z, is the most religiously unaffiliated of any previous cohort. Fewer people are church members, and church membership is aging. “My volunteer base is in the upper 70s to 80s [in age],” Kitchens said about ARM. “So there’s a lot of things they can’t do. That’s why I’m here seven days a week.”

After what I saw in the aftermath of Helene, it’s no surprise a study from the Pew Research Center found that “nones” are less likely to volunteer. It might be because they don’t know where to go. They don’t have the email list to check, the board member to call, the system to lean on, or the trust that a local ministry is reputable.

I worry my generation might lose access to the systems required to care for our neighbors. And that means, as natural disasters increase in frequency and severity, fewer neighbors will be helped.


Michala Watson told me her flood story at the hotel in Asheville, North Carolina, where she works. Six months later, the parking lot was still covered in silt.

At 6 a.m. on September 27, she awoke to a crashing sound. She jumped out of bed, checked on her daughter, and looked outside. A tree had missed her basement window by less than a foot; the Swannanoa River near her house was overflowing.

Watson was scheduled to work—she was at a different hotel then—but a fallen tree was blocking her driveway. She told her manager she couldn’t make it through the storm, but the manager insisted she come in anyway. Watson couldn’t afford a gap in her paychecks, so she bundled up and started walking, arriving at work soaked and scared.

Her manager wasn’t there and didn’t answer calls. The power, water, and cellphone service had all gone out. Watson and a coworker dealt with upset customers. Some threatened to come around the desk.

Watson slept in the lobby for eight days, job security pressuring her from one side and violence from the other. “There was guys showing up with knives, guns, and massive mag lights trying to beat on the windows,” Watson said. “There were people’s cars getting broken into in the parking lot.”

Eventually, Watson quit her job and went home to feet of water damage in her basement. Her family had lost winter clothes, their washer and dryer, and her daughter’s stuffed animals.

In the weeks that followed, Watson—like Ford and Kitchens and Van Rijssen and Rhinehart—tried to help. She cleared a tree for an older neighbor. She bought a generator and gasoline cans, set them up in the street, and ran extension cords to her neighbors. She was also working evening shifts at her new hotel, caring for her family, and clearing out her basement. “Everybody’s trying to wade through it,” she remembered, “and it’s just really, really, really hard.”

Watson is capable. She’s proven that many times over. But it would have been nice to have some support, both physical and spiritual.
She went to a couple of places for supplies: a Veterans Affairs building, a Big Lots parking lot. But not the church.

Across town, Groce UMC was serving two o’clock meals to other mothers in their 30s. But when Watson thinks of church, she doesn’t think of generosity. She believes in Jesus, but as a kid, it felt like church was forced upon her, so she doesn’t attend any longer.

Watson’s situation is not uncommon. Around 40 million Americans used to go to church but don’t anymore—even though, according to a Barna study, belief in Jesus jumped 12 percentage points between 2021 and 2025.

Van Rijssen, the meal organizer, also doesn’t go to church. Neither do the teenagers who served the food. In addition to planning the weekly meal, Van Rijssen runs a nonprofit out of a Sunday school classroom. She’s of a generation that still sees the church as a resource, a part of community life. Sunday service isn’t part of her routine, though—she had a bad experience with church growing up.

Sue Ford stopped going to church after her dad passed away. She said she feels like she should start going again.

I understand all of this. I’ve felt disconnected and anxious in congregations. I’ve had doubts; I still have doubts. Christian hypocrisy makes me angry. And it’s easy to fall out of the habit of attendance, especially after a crisis. All this to say, I’m grateful now to be part of a congregation. But I wasn’t always sure that would happen.


When I first showed up at my church’s door, if people there had straight-up asked me what I believed about the Resurrection, my honest answer would have been “I don’t know.” But they didn’t ask. They offered me coffee and lasagna. They welcomed conversations about strange Bible stories and new movies.

And they served. They cleaned up the creek that weaves around the property and made the building a place for unhoused people to sleep in the winter. They organized meal trains for widows and visited the sick. A man let me drive his car for a month after my car’s frame rusted through. Then a couple lent me their pickup truck for the month after that. People at the church let me help too; they ask me to put up chairs. I’m great at catsitting.

As a kid, I was taught that we could live our lives as if the kingdom of God reigns now. Watching church members serve reminded me of that promise. This order was different than “I believe in Jesus, therefore I belong in the church, therefore I act like a Christian.” Instead, my behavior led to belonging, which helped my unbelief.

People have to enter the church somehow. There’s a legitimate concern that if they don’t use the belief doorway, they won’t stay. But many doorways can lead inside.

Of course, something has to keep a community together for the long haul. Christians gather to proclaim the good news that God loves the world, eat the Lord’s Supper, listen to Scripture read and preached, and worship.

Our men’s choir has a favorite song: “Precious Lord, Take My Hand.” Graying elders and deacons and trustees sing,

Precious Lord, take my hand,
Lead me on, let me stand.
I’m tired, I’m weak, I’m worn.
Through the storm, through the night,
Lead me on to the light.
Take my hand, precious Lord,
Lead me home.

At the end of the day, my (and every other) generation has to choose whether we will commit ourselves to a God who cares for our worn bodies and calls us to forgive not only our enemies but also the person sitting next to us. We have to confess that we can’t weather the storm alone.

But at the start, we might be looking for lasagna. Or for an opportunity to do something about the crises that prick our consciences—homelessness, poverty, climate change, agricultural practices that hurt the land. We can read on our phones, or we can clean up our creek.

I feel at home in the church these days, and I don’t think Jesus thinks I used the wrong door—at least he hasn’t told me yet.

On Saturday, September 28, I was confused about how to respond to a historic disaster. But I belonged to a system, I listened to leaders, and I went where I was sent.

Being part of a congregation allowed me to serve, even as a young person. And through that service, the Holy Spirit actively strengthened my trust in a church that professes to follow a loving, incarnated God. Why couldn’t the same be true for the teenagers ladling stew or for other young people looking for a way to give back?

My hope is that, in 20 and 30 years, the Watsons and Van Rijssens of the world, along with so many of my skeptical, church-hurt peers, will have in the church a caring community they trust. Through wind and flood, I hope there will continue to be buildings stocked with food for the hungry, chainsaws for the broken trees, and stuffed animals for the ones that were lost.

Isaac Wood produces local history podcasts in East Tennessee. He was a member of the inaugural class of the CT Young Storytellers Fellowship.

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