During this same time period, God reminded me of Joshua’s battle against the Amalekites. In case it’s been a while since you’ve read Exodus 17, the Israelites could only press forward when Moses held his staff above his head. A peculiar strategy, but God seems to relish supernatural displays of power that mankind cannot take credit for. Inevitably,
Moses’ arms soon became so tired he could no longer hold them up. So Aaron and Hur found a stone for him to sit on. Then they stood on each side of Moses, holding up his hands. So his hands held steady until sunset. As a result, Joshua overwhelmed the army of Amalek in battle (Exodus 17:12-13).
This passage reduces me to tears and deeply heartens me. Moses, with his companions holding his hands toward heaven, embodied strength in weakness. This example of an ordained leader, committed to God’s battle plan and yet humble enough to allow others to help him, gives me permission to admit my needs and ask for help. Like Moses, I needed others to hold up my arms, literally and figuratively. In this season, my husband and sons, my friends, and ministry partners became my Aaron and my Hur.
Since then, God has used other unexpected situations to pull back the corners of my facade, giving me access to my buried heart. Though I still prefer denying my limitations and not relying on others, I know that’s no longer an option. No amount of deception or stoicism can make us less needy. In fact, until we are willing to consistently acknowledge our needs and ask for help, we will not be able to win our battles and move forward on the road to wholeness and holiness.
Those we lead need to see that we’re limited. (In fact, I’m quite confident they already do.) By admitting our weaknesses, needs, and limitations, we invite others to stand shoulder to shoulder with us rather than follow along in our shadow. And perhaps most importantly, when we stop pretending we’re invincible, we agree that all battles are won by God’s strength. Not ours.
Dorothy Littell Greco spends her days writing about faith, encouraging others as they pursue Jesus, making photographs of beautiful things, and trying to love her family well. You can find more of her Words & Images @dorothygreco.com or follow her on Facebook: www.facebook.com/DorothyGrecoPhotography.