Wrestling with Angels
Come, Lord Jesus
I was a guest musician at a church in Winnipeg, engaged in the familiar liturgies of a pre-service prayer huddle. One person prayed for the congregation's safety in inclement weather, another for the technical aspects of the service, and a third kindly remembered my family back home.
When my turn came, I must have used a phrase like, "God, we invite you here among us." I clearly recall the minister's prayer, which followed mine: "We know we do not have to request your presence, because there is nowhere you are not. So we celebrate the fact you are already here with us now."
My head stayed bowed, but my face burned. This guy is correcting my theology with his prayer!
The service went as planned. But throughout the evening, I was mentally defending my choice of words. Of course I know God is everywhere—I've read Psalm 139! I was requesting an extra measure of his presence, an outpouring of his Spirit. Or, if you want to be more precise (and clearly you do), I was praying that God would help us to be open to him. Aren't we just arguing semantics?
I never articulated any of these thoughts to the minister. But the dialogue I've had with him in my head ever since has gradually refined my thinking—a case of iron sharpening particularly dull iron. I now believe that pastor's gentle correction was necessary.
If the psalmist is right—that there truly is nowhere we can go to flee God's presence—why do we act like his attendance is intermittent? And why do we assume it's dependent on us?
"Halfway through the retreat, God showed up," we say. As if he wasn't there before we were, drawing us to that time and place.
"Lord, we welcome you to come," we pray. As if he needs us to usher him into the world he created. As if we do not "live and move and have our being" in him alone (Acts 17:28).
In the Gospels, Jesus makes a simple proclamation with seismic implications: "Repent, for the kingdom of heaven is near" (Matt. 4:17). For those of us who grew up in the hot, scary shadows of brimstone pulpits, the command to repent causes an involuntary shudder. But the Greek word is metanoeite, which is more invitation than threat. It means "change your mind" or "reconsider."
Reconsider what? According to Jesus, everything you thought you knew about reality. Why? Because the kingdom of heaven is near.
Most of us think of heaven as somewhere out there, the place where God watches from a distance and we will one day join him. But for the biblical writers, heaven is close. In fact, the "first heavens" is a term used to describe the earth's atmosphere. So when Jesus describes the invisible (but very real) realm that God inhabits, he lets us know it's not only out there, but also as near as the atmosphere surrounding our bodies and the air we breathe.
That Winnipeg minister was calling me to repent—to reconsider what I thought I knew about reality and the way God pervades it. I don't have to invoke God's presence. I only have to attend to it.
This change of heart and mind alters the way I approach discipleship. I suspect I have sometimes unconsciously used spiritual disciplines as smoke signals to get God 's attention. Now I am learning that they are simply ways of letting him capture mine.
A similar change has occurred in my orientation toward evangelism. I don't have to give a nonbeliever something I have that she doesn't. I need only invite her to open herself up to what God is already doing all around her.
The other day I was trying to describe this shift in my understanding to my friend Roy Salmond. He ran to pull out an article he'd read in Time magazine more than a decade ago. It's an eloquent piece called "The Game of Catch," by Roger Rosenblatt, about baseball, parenthood, and the wordless communication between a father and son tossing the ball around. While the article is in no way religious, one thought in particular has permanently changed Roy's view of life with God.
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Mary Jo
I grew up hearing plenty of brimstone and fire sermons from the pulpit. I misunderstood reaching out to God as a teenager. I thought I had to have perfect faith to have God accept me. I doubted, therefore I didn't see how I could ever have perfect faith. I wrestled with this issue for a decade until God started calling me to him. I had always wanted a relationship with him, but he was reaching out to me and accepted me as I was. He had always loved me, but I just didn't understand that until I was in my early twenties. I still battled with doubt that he accepted me over the years. I came to a point not to depend on my feelings, but accept scripture. My life has improved since I started accepting scripture as the truth, not how I feel. Thank you for this article.
Kevin
We all need to be reminded of this. We can think we're firm believers in an ever-present God, but if we could actually see Him standing there in the same room, would we do some of the things we do? Yet, as believers, we claim to believe He really is there. It makes you realize that almost none of us has the faith we're supposed to. Think about preachers who have been guilty of such acts as adultery. You'd think a man of God would be the last person to commit a sin like that, what with God being right there. We all have a long way to go.
Chuck P, Marlton, NJ
Thank you for the article. I agree that it is powerful and an obligation of spiritual leaders and public worship to model and communicate with accuracy biblical truth. There are a handful of other examples like this one where leaders unintentionally mishandle elementary truth. The classic one is whenever we publicly give thanks to God "for answering our prayer" for a specific request. God who is everywhere and hears all things ALWAYS answers the prayer of a righteous person, if I may oversimplify, with yes, no, or wait. Let's thank God for granting our request, not for answering our prayer this time (by implication he doesn't always).